“Yes, Philip,” she said, with her childish contrition when he used to
chide her, “you are right, I know. I do always think too much of my own
feelings, and not enough of others’,—not enough of yours. I had need
have you always to find fault with me and teach me; so many things have
come true that you used to tell me.”
Maggie was resting her elbow on the table, leaning her head on her hand
and looking at Philip with half-penitent dependent affection, as she
said this; while he was returning her gaze with an expression that, to
her consciousness, gradually became less vague,—became charged with a
specific recollection. Had his mind flown back to something that _she_
now remembered,—something about a lover of Lucy’s? It was a thought
that made her shudder; it gave new definiteness to her present
position, and to the tendency of what had happened the evening before.
She moved her arm from the table, urged to change her position by that
positive physical oppression at the heart that sometimes accompanies a
sudden mental pang.
“What is the matter, Maggie? Has something happened?” Philip said, in
inexpressible anxiety, his imagination being only too ready to weave
everything that was fatal to them both.
“No, nothing,” said Maggie, rousing her latent will. Philip must not
have that odious thought in his mind; she would banish it from her own.
“Nothing,” she repeated, “except in my own mind. You used to say I
should feel the effect of my starved life, as you called it; and I do.
I am too eager in my enjoyment of music and all luxuries, now they are
come to me.”
She took up her work and occupied herself resolutely, while Philip
watched her, really in doubt whether she had anything more than this
general allusion in her mind. It was quite in Maggie’s character to be
agitated by vague self-reproach. But soon there came a violent
well-known ring at the door-bell resounding through the house.
“Oh, what a startling announcement!” said Maggie, quite mistress of
herself, though not without some inward flutter. “I wonder where Lucy
is.”
Lucy had not been deaf to the signal, and after an interval long enough
for a few solicitous but not hurried inquiries, she herself ushered
Stephen in.
“Well, old fellow,” he said, going straight up to Philip and shaking
him heartily by the hand, bowing to Maggie in passing, “it’s glorious
to have you back again; only I wish you’d conduct yourself a little
less like a sparrow with a residence on the house-top, and not go in
and out constantly without letting the servants know. This is about the
twentieth time I’ve had to scamper up those countless stairs to that
painting-room of yours, all to no purpose, because your people thought
you were at home. Such incidents embitter friendship.”
“I’ve so few visitors, it seems hardly worth while to leave notice of
my exit and entrances,” said Philip, feeling rather oppressed just then
by Stephen’s bright strong presence and strong voice.