The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
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Dr Kenn smiled. “I hope I’m going to have you as a permanent
parishioner now, Miss Tulliver; am I? You have been at a distance from
us hitherto.”
“I have been a teacher in a school, and I’m going into another
situation of the same kind very soon.”
“Ah? I was hoping you would remain among your friends, who are all in
this neighbourhood, I believe.”
“Oh, _I must go_,” said Maggie, earnestly, looking at Dr Kenn with an
expression of reliance, as if she had told him her history in those
three words. It was one of those moments of implicit revelation which
will sometimes happen even between people who meet quite
transiently,—on a mile’s journey, perhaps, or when resting by the
wayside. There is always this possibility of a word or look from a
stranger to keep alive the sense of human brotherhood.
Dr Kenn’s ear and eye took in all the signs that this brief confidence
of Maggie’s was charged with meaning.
“I understand,” he said; “you feel it right to go. But that will not
prevent our meeting again, I hope; it will not prevent my knowing you
better, if I can be of any service to you.”
He put out his hand and pressed hers kindly before he turned away.
“She has some trouble or other at heart,” he thought. “Poor child! she
looks as if she might turn out to be one of
‘The souls by nature pitched too high,
By suffering plunged too low.’
“There’s something wonderfully honest in those beautiful eyes.”
It may be surprising that Maggie, among whose many imperfections an
excessive delight in admiration and acknowledged supremacy were not
absent now, any more than when she was instructing the gypsies with a
view toward achieving a royal position among them, was not more elated
on a day when she had had the tribute of so many looks and smiles,
together with that satisfactory consciousness which had necessarily
come from being taken before Lucy’s chevalglass, and made to look at
the full length of her tall beauty, crowned by the night of her massy
hair. Maggie had smiled at herself then, and for the moment had
forgotten everything in the sense of her own beauty. If that state of
mind could have lasted, her choice would have been to have Stephen
Guest at her feet, offering her a life filled with all luxuries, with
daily incense of adoration near and distant, and with all possibilities
of culture at her command. But there were things in her stronger than
vanity,—passion and affection, and long, deep memories of early
discipline and effort, of early claims on her love and pity; and the
stream of vanity was soon swept along and mingled imperceptibly with
that wider current which was at its highest force today, under the
double urgency of the events and inward impulses brought by the last
week.