“It is unnatural, it is horrible. Maggie, if you loved me as I love
you, we should throw everything else to the winds for the sake of
belonging to each other. We should break all these mistaken ties that
were made in blindness, and determine to marry each other.”
“I would rather die than fall into that temptation,” said Maggie, with
deep, slow distinctness, all the gathered spiritual force of painful
years coming to her aid in this extremity. She drew her arm from his as
she spoke.
“Tell me, then, that you don’t care for me,” he said, almost violently.
“Tell me that you love some one else better.”
It darted through Maggie’s mind that here was a mode of releasing
herself from outward struggle,—to tell Stephen that her whole heart was
Philip’s. But her lips would not utter that, and she was silent.
“If you do love me, dearest,” said Stephen, gently, taking her hand
again and laying it within his arm, “it is better—it is right that we
should marry each other. We can’t help the pain it will give. It is
come upon us without our seeking; it is natural; it has taken hold of
me in spite of every effort I have made to resist it. God knows, I’ve
been trying to be faithful to tacit engagements, and I’ve only made
things worse; I’d better have given way at first.”
Maggie was silent. If it were _not_ wrong—if she were once convinced of
that, and need no longer beat and struggle against this current, soft
and yet strong as the summer stream!
“Say ‘yes,’ dearest,” said Stephen, leaning to look entreatingly in her
face. “What could we care about in the whole world beside, if we
belonged to each other?”
Her breath was on his face, his lips were very near hers, but there was
a great dread dwelling in his love for her.
Her lips and eyelids quivered; she opened her eyes full on his for an
instant, like a lovely wild animal timid and struggling under caresses,
and then turned sharp round toward home again.
“And after all,” he went on, in an impatient tone, trying to defeat his
own scruples as well as hers, “I am breaking no positive engagement; if
Lucy’s affections had been withdrawn from me and given to some one
else, I should have felt no right to assert a claim on her. If you are
not absolutely pledged to Philip, we are neither of us bound.”
“You don’t believe that; it is not your real feeling,” said Maggie,
earnestly. “You feel, as I do, that the real tie lies in the feelings
and expectations we have raised in other minds. Else all pledges might
be broken, when there was no outward penalty. There would be no such
thing as faithfulness.”
Stephen was silent; he could not pursue that argument; the opposite
conviction had wrought in him too strongly through his previous time of
struggle. But it soon presented itself in a new form.