The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
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Tom walked on without looking around, and Yap followed his example, the
cold bath having moderated his passions.
“Go along wi’ you, then, wi’ your drowned dog; I wouldn’t own such a
dog—_I_ wouldn’t,” said Bob, getting louder, in a last effort to
sustain his defiance. But Tom was not to be provoked into turning
round, and Bob’s voice began to falter a little as he said,—
“An’ I’n gi’en you everything, an’ showed you everything, an’ niver
wanted nothin’ from you. An’ there’s your horn-handed knife, then as
you gi’en me.” Here Bob flung the knife as far as he could after Tom’s
retreating footsteps. But it produced no effect, except the sense in
Bob’s mind that there was a terrible void in his lot, now that knife
was gone.
He stood still till Tom had passed through the gate and disappeared
behind the hedge. The knife would do no good on the ground there; it
wouldn’t vex Tom; and pride or resentment was a feeble passion in Bob’s
mind compared with the love of a pocket-knife. His very fingers sent
entreating thrills that he would go and clutch that familiar rough
buck’s-horn handle, which they had so often grasped for mere affection,
as it lay idle in his pocket. And there were two blades, and they had
just been sharpened! What is life without a pocket-knife to him who has
once tasted a higher existence? No; to throw the handle after the
hatchet is a comprehensible act of desperation, but to throw one’s
pocket-knife after an implacable friend is clearly in every sense a
hyperbole, or throwing beyond the mark. So Bob shuffled back to the
spot where the beloved knife lay in the dirt, and felt quite a new
pleasure in clutching it again after the temporary separation, in
opening one blade after the other, and feeling their edge with his
well-hardened thumb. Poor Bob! he was not sensitive on the point of
honour, not a chivalrous character. That fine moral aroma would not
have been thought much of by the public opinion of Kennel Yard, which
was the very focus or heart of Bob’s world, even if it could have made
itself perceptible there; yet, for all that, he was not utterly a sneak
and a thief as our friend Tom had hastily decided.
But Tom, you perceive, was rather a Rhadamanthine personage, having
more than the usual share of boy’s justice in him,—the justice that
desires to hurt culprits as much as they deserve to be hurt, and is
troubled with no doubts concerning the exact amount of their deserts.
Maggie saw a cloud on his brow when he came home, which checked her joy
at his coming so much sooner than she had expected, and she dared
hardly speak to him as he stood silently throwing the small
gravel-stones into the mill-dam. It is not pleasant to give up a
rat-catching when you have set your mind on it. But if Tom had told his
strongest feeling at that moment, he would have said, “I’d do just the
same again.” That was his usual mode of viewing his past actions;
whereas Maggie was always wishing she had done something different.
Chapter VII.