The Mysterious Mr. Miller — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mysterious Mr. Miller
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Darkness was now falling, yet there was still sufficient light to reveal
her wondrous beauty. As she stood before me in her pale grey dress and
large black hat I recognised that she had grown even more beautiful than
she had been in the days of our love romance. Her figure was perfect in
its symmetry; her countenance so lovely that even the uncommon beauty of
Lucie paled before her. Those blue eyes that I knew were so
unfathomable were turned upon me, and even there I saw in them the
love-light that was unmistakable, that expression mysterious and
indescribable that no woman is ever able to feign--the look, often
unconscious, that tells a man that he is the object of passionate
affection.
My heart leapt within me with wild ecstasy, yet I could not speak.
I only grasped her hand more tightly. Then in order to cover the
emotion that I saw was rising within her, I turned and made a casual
remark to Lucie that it was almost time we returned.
"Of course," she said quickly, recognising the situation. "You two have
much to talk over alone. Let us go."
And together we moved forward along the path by, which my lost love had
returned to me.
How can I describe to you my feelings in those moments? Sometimes I
found myself doubting whether it was not all some dream or some strange
chimera of my unbalanced brain. But I held her hand, and found that it
was real flesh and blood. My well-beloved still lived; she for whom I
had mourned so long had returned, even more sweet and beautiful.
The village bells were pealing, the ringers practising probably.
"Hark!" I said, as I walked at her side, treading on air from sheer
buoyancy of spirits. "They are joy bells, Ella. They ring because you
have returned to me." She laughed, turning those dear, wide-open eyes
to mine, and said:--
"How often have I wondered where you were, and whether--" and she paused
without completing the sentence.
"Whether what?"
"Well--whether you had, after all, forgotten me," she said. "I never
dreamed that you believed me dead. I thought, of course, that if you
really loved me, as you used to say, that you would surely write to me
or endeavour to see me when you knew that, after all, I had not married
that man."
"Then you did not marry Blumenthal after all!" I cried quickly. "Was
the engagement broken off?"
"Yes. Because of his ill-health. He released me when the doctors told
him the truth--that he had only a few months to live. He died three
months later." And she grew silent again, and yet it seemed as if she
wished to tell me something further. Indeed she was about to do so, but
checked herself.
"Well!" I asked, in order to allow her an opportunity to speak.