"For the present, grandmother. For the present we are going to say
nothing. A little time before my father died he told me who I was. We
had lost our money, but that did not matter as my father was provided
for here. When I came to find out how the land lay, to my surprise I
discovered that the only woman I could ever care for was installed at
the Hall as mistress. I had no idea that this was going to happen when
I met Mary two years ago in Paris. Her father had not assumed the
family name then. And when I came face to face with Mary and held her
in my arms, I knew that the old love was stronger than ever. And here
was a solution. Those people were occupying my place, the place that
belonged by birth to me, Sir Ralph Dashwood. If I had proclaimed and
asked Mary to marry me, she would have consented. She would have
regarded it as her duty to do so. But that is not the marriage of my
dreams. Perhaps I am romantic: I want Mary to marry me, me, plain
Ralph Darnley, for love of me, and deem the family pride well lost for
a good man's affection. It is the living, breathing woman I want, not
the lovely mistress of that family who puts the pride of the Dashwoods
in front of everything else. Suffering and trouble and poverty shall
be her portion. She shall go out into the world and see what noble
souls are there who rise superior to fierce temptation though they
have no family pride to boast of. Then, when the scales have fallen
from Mary's eyes, and she sees as I do, then will I ask her to share
my life with me. My dream is to come back here with a bride who deems
love and pity and sympathy to be far above the steady sentiment that
says, 'I am a Dashwood, and the rest are as dirt under my feet.' You
see what I mean, don't you? And that is why I am asking you to help me
in the matter. Let this little imposter strut his passing hours on the
stage; let him be our puppet. I shall know how to punish him when the
time comes."
CHAPTER XXXIII.
A REBEL AGAINST FATE
Lady Dashwood smiled through her tears. She had eyes of affection for
this tall, handsome, earnest man who paced up and down the room now
with the burning words on his lips. He was moved to the very heart; it
seemed to him that his scheme was the only way. Lady Dashwood felt
that she could hesitate no longer.
"You are very eloquent, Ralph," she said, "and whatever the faults of
your scheme may be, you are terribly in earnest. It is not for me to
stand in the way. God knows the family pride that I did so much to
foster has done harm enough. It drove your father away from home, it
came between me and my son and my husband, and rendered all the best
years of my life a blank and a desolation. Some day, when I have the
courage, I will tell you why your father left home, and the shameful
deceit that I put upon him. And all to save the family dignity! And
now Mary is as hard as I ever was. Still, the good that lies in that
girl of mine----"