"It does not require a Dashwood to do that," he said. "Thousands of
people make these noble sacrifices every day, and take no credit to
themselves for it. When you get out into the world you will see
another kind of pride and courage and devotion that will put your
fetish to shame. If I were to say that this is the best thing that
could happen to you, you would laugh the idea to scorn. Nevertheless,
it is absolutely true. What money have you?"
"Perhaps thirty pounds," Mary explained; "and certain articles of
jewelry. But I am not going to part with them like the girl in the
story did."
Ralph felt by no means so sure of that, but he said nothing. He was
very silent till the dower house was reached, silent and a little
guilty too, for he it was who had brought this about. He was sending
Mary into the world to battle for her life alone. On the whole, he was
not sorry that the girl had refused Lady Dashwood's offer of a home;
_that_ was a specimen of the right kind of pride at any rate. And yet,
now that the hour of Mary's departure drew near, he dreaded the
parting. After all, the experiment was a cruel one, it was not yet too
late to save the situation.
Lady Dashwood was crying now; the dogcart stood by the great stone
porch; Dashwood fidgeted about in a half-shamed kind of way, yet
frowning disapproval of the whole business.
"Really, we are making a deal of fuss about nothing," he said.
"Anybody would think that Mary was being led away to instant
execution, instead of behaving in a way that makes me thoroughly
ashamed of her. It is my clear duty to exercise my parental authority.
As it is I am not going to do anything of the kind. Mary shall have
her lesson. She will very soon get tired of playing the part of the
unattached female. She will be back in a week."
And this was Mary's farewell greeting as she drove away from the dower
house. She kept her face steady, and looked neither right nor left,
not that she could see anything, for her eyes were blinded with tears.
Behind the tears, one vision stood out bright and clear--the strong,
reliant face of Ralph Darnley, the warm pressure of whose grip still
tingled on Mary's fingers. It was good to know that she had one true
friend.
The station was reached at last, and Mary was alone. She dismissed the
dogcart; she did not want the groom to see that she was going to
travel third class. It was rather a snobbish idea, and Mary despised
herself for it accordingly. The porter and the ticket officer looked
astonished as Mary asked the third-class fare to Victoria. How little
things seemed to remind her of what had been!
"I am going third," she said firmly. "Will you please to see that my
two baskets are placed in the luggage van, Gibbons?"