"Oh, yes, yes," Mary cried, "I should love to go with you. You may
think that I am very foolish and ignorant, but you are opening up a
new world to me. Positively I did not know that there were such things
as these; even you are a new type to me. And here am I, who have been
living with my head in the clouds, regarding the universe as being
made up of people like the Dashwoods and others, whose privilege and
duty it is to serve them. How selfish!"
"Well, you are not selfish now," Connie said. "You had the pluck to
turn out and get your own living rather than eat what you call the
bread of charity."
"Pride," Mary exclaimed, "every bit of it pride. I was bitterly
wounded with a trick that Fortune had played upon me; in my arrogance,
I left home, though one kind heart bleeds for me. I only had my narrow
point of view. And I hate this kind of thing, I could cry aloud at the
sordidness of it. I can't endure it patiently as you do."
Connie laughed unsteadily. A mist crept into her eyes.
"It is because I have schooled myself," she said. "It is so weak to
complain. But there are times when I should like to die and make an
end of it all."
Again Mary had nothing to say. She was learning to plumb the depths of
her own selfishness by comparison with others. She was beginning
dumbly to understand what Ralph Darnley must think of her. And yet he
had made no secret of his love and affection. She was strangely silent
as she walked along with Connie in the darkness of the evening. They
came at length to a mean little street leading off Tottenham Court
Road, and before a fairly respectable house there, Connie stopped.
Presently Mary found herself shaking hands with a tall, thin girl, who
gave her the strange impression that her new acquaintance was made of
some fragile china. Her clear skin was deadly pale, and the dark eyes
seemed to burn in the face like sombre flames. The slender frame was
racked now and then by distressing fits of coughing.
Yet there was a subtle strength and power about the girl that appealed
to Mary. Here was a girl after her own heart, one who would struggle
to the end, and if she had to die she would fall in her tracks without
a murmur.
Yet everything was against her. She had no natural advantages like
Mary. There was more shame for the latter. Hitherto she had lived
entirely for herself; her bounties had been dispensed with a haughty
hand.
She had never dreamed of a kingdom inhabited by such brave, pure souls
as these. Despite the shabby little sitting-room it was impossible to
mistake Grace Cameron for anything but a lady. She had a smile of
sweet sympathy as Connie made the necessary introduction, and spoke of
Mary as another of the elect who had come into the arena.