The Nether Millstone — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Nether Millstone
John Stuart Mill · en
"My dear, in this matter I cannot trust anybody; by Heaven, I can
hardly trust myself. Ah, if you only knew how I love you and how great
the temptation is! But the reward that I am working for will be all
the sweeter when the time comes. Go sleep now with a calm mind, for I
pledge my honour that things shall be as I say."
Mary's two hands had fluttered out to Ralph. She was moved by the deep
sincerity of his words, for a broken smile, half respect and half
affection, quivered on her face. With an impulse that he could not
resist, Ralph drew the girl to him and laid his lips on hers. Then,
with a sigh, he put her from him and turned towards the window.
"There," he said, "I ask no pardon for my audacity. I could not help
it. And that kiss was as pure as if it came from your mother's lips."
"The first from any man," Mary murmured, a pink flush on her face.
"You are a good man, Ralph, and it is a pity I did not meet you before
the curse of the family pride fell upon me. Good night, and God bless
you for all your kindness to me."
The window closed and the blind fell, the lights in the house began to
vanish one by one, and still Ralph lingered there on the grass. He saw
Mayfield return, he saw the last ray extinguished, save for the
solitary glow in Sir George's bedroom. A clock over the stables struck
the hour of two, and still Ralph stood there oblivious of the flight
of time.
He was thinking of the dramatic scene of the evening. More than once
he mourned his lost opportunities. He had all the strings in his own
hand, the game was entirely his, and he felt, too, that in spite of
her fateful pride, Mary was beginning to care for him. If not, why had
she taken his kiss so sweetly? Ralph had only to proclaim his
identity, he had merely to prove his title to the estate, and at once
he would be in the position to free the present occupier of Dashwood
Hall of his peril. And Mary would not refuse to marry the man whose
blood was as pure as hers. But Ralph had made up his mind what to do.
He would win her love as Ralph Darnley, afterwards the truth could be
told. Why not tonight? he asked himself. There was no time like the
present. He would go and find the will, he would let Sir George know
where it was.
The house was still now, and Ralph knew the way . . . . He was in the
long corridor presently, here was the old oak dower-chest and the
panel below it. Here was the spring by which the panel was released.
The thing was ridiculously easy.