The Nether Millstone — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Nether Millstone
John Stuart Mill · en
A few words spoken, and what a difference there would be! Those words
meant that Ralph would have held out his hands and asked Mary to come
and help him to reign here. Ay, and she would have come, too. Her
point of view would be entirely changed. And she must love him.
Indeed, he had more than a feeling that she loved him now, without
being aware of the state of her affections. Her heart would go out to
him, and there would be peace and happiness for evermore.
The temptation was great, so great that the beads of perspiration
stood out on Ralph's forehead. But he crushed the temptation down; his
pride came to his assistance. No, when Mary came to love, she should
love the man for his own sake, she should tell him so, and Dashwood
should be as nothing in comparison.
"I came here to look for something," Ralph said at length.
"Indeed! Judging by what you hold in your hand I should say that you
have found it. How did you manage to obtain entrance to the house?"
"Quite a simple matter," Ralph replied. "I climbed on to the leads
outside the big window. By pressing a knob outside, the window can be
made to open."
"Really! I have lived here practically all my life, and I was not
aware of that fact. For an absolute stranger, your knowledge of the
house is exceedingly comprehensive. May I ask if you have found what
you were looking for?"
"I have," Ralph said huskily. "Permit me to replace it in the old
chest. Tomorrow, if your father is well enough, I will see him and
explain. I beg to assure you that I have what criminal lawyers call a
perfect answer to the charge."
"And you ask me to believe this?" Mary burst out passionately. "How do
I know that you are not one of those who are in league against us? How
do I know that your indignation against Horace Mayfield is not all
assumed?"
"How do you know that I am a gentleman?" Ralph retorted. "You cannot
explain why."
"Indeed I cannot," Mary said bitterly. "I trusted you, I regarded you
as a friend. I asked for your assistance and you promised it to me. In
my heart I thanked God that I had a friend that I could rely upon.
Actually, you caused me to forget the difference between our stations
in life. And now!"
The girl paused, with something like tears in her voice. She looked
very sweet and womanly at that moment, Ralph thought. He could afford
to ignore the suggestion of the social gulf between them. The
temptation to tell the truth came over him again, but once more he
fought the impulse and conquered it.