The Nether Millstone — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Nether Millstone
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"Slight told me," Lady Dashwood went on. "He came to me at once. My
dear, you must not be angry with old Slight. He worships the very
ground you walk on; he would lay down his life for you. And he knows
everything; I shrewdly suspect that he knows even more than I do.
Slight is something more than a servant, he is a valued friend of the
family. And he came to me as I have said. He tells me that Horace
Mayfield has got his wicked fingers in here; that he has plotted to
make you his wife. That must not be, Mary, that must never take place.
Surely you can defy that man, can order him out of the house."
"I could," Mary said slowly, "I am not afraid of him. As yet I have
not pledged my word. Still, I am quite helpless. Look into the
drawing-room and see for yourself. . . . That is what we have to put
up with, three of them for the best part of a week. By eight o'clock
tomorrow morning the servants will know everything; before the day is
out we will be the talk of the county. I could not show my face after
that. The degradation would make me old before my time. It is not as
if I cared nothing for Dashwood. I love every stick and stone of it,
the place is part of my being. It was your house for nearly forty
years. Can't you understand my feelings?"
"I ought to," Lady Dashwood said bitterly. "It was I who first
fostered those feelings. I tended them; day and night I watered them
and fed them till they grew like a plant. With the lesson of the past
before my eyes, I encouraged your pride. And now it is the master
passion of your life. Everything has to be sacrificed to the old name
and the old place. As for me, I should not hesitate for a single
moment."
"And never know the feeling of happiness again!" Mary cried.
"Oh, my dear! happiness and I parted years ago. The old never expect
happiness; there are too many ghosts, too many gaps, and too many
memories. Peace is the greatest possession that one can expect at my
time of life. And if you do this vile thing, then I shall have to go
down to the grave without it. I am a wicked old woman; I am suffering
now because I dare not tell the truth; but rather than this wrong
shall be done, I will speak, though I made a death-bedside promise not
to do so. Suppose I told you that you have less right at Dashwood than
I have!"
The last words came with a fierce whisper that struck a cold chill to
Mary's heart. Had Lady Dashwood suddenly lost her reason? But that
white quivering face had no dull insanity upon it; the dark eyes were
full of horror but not of madness.
"What do you mean?" Mary asked.
"I--I cannot tell you. I was sorry to say as much. Do you suppose that
Horace Mayfield loves you in the ordinary sense of the word?"
"I believe he does, if that has anything to do with the question."