The other Miller girl — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The other Miller girl
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“Only a wee bit and it isn’t exactly _tired_, then,” declared the
girl. “But you know how it is when you go into a painty room or pass
by that awful-smelling tannery place beyond Wenham? You don’t draw a
long breath all the while and yet you don’t realise that you’re holding
your breath. Well, there’s something about Mrs. Langley and her room
that makes you feel as if you were sitting on the edge of your chair
waiting until you can get out where you see sunshine and people that
talk and smile. Her eyes, you know, like coals of fire in the Bible,
and great hollows in her cheeks and a voice that seems to come from a
cave or a tomb. The blinds are drawn down almost to the window sills
and there are medicine bottles to burn. There’s air enough, I suppose,
but not the kind that’s sweetened by sunshine. It seems musty and makes
you feel as if there were spiders in all the dark corners--huge black
spiders with bodies big as this and crooked legs!”
“O Anna!”
“Sure thing! And what do you think? She wants me to come to see her
every Saturday,--every blooming Saturday afternoon, Miss Penny.”
“Anna dear, I wouldn’t do it. You really must not,” said Miss Penny
gravely. “It would be too great a strain upon you.”
Anna threw herself on the hassock at Miss Penny’s feet leaning her head
upon the knee that was not lame.
“Really, Miss Penny, I am glad to go again and every Saturday,” she
said softly. “Mr. Langley almost had tears in his eyes when he spoke of
it. I didn’t dare look at him again to make sure, because after I had
come out of that creepy place it wouldn’t have taken much to set me to
crying.”
“I understand,” murmured Miss Penny stroking the girl’s yellow hair.
“And to tell the truth, Anna, I almost envy you in being able to do
something for Mr. Langley. Ever since he came to be our preacher, I
have longed to do something for him to express my appreciation and
affection for him, but it always seems impossible. It has always been
the other way--his doing for me. And the best things in my life have
come to me through him, Reuben and Rusty and now you, Anna.”
“Miss Penny,” said Anna quickly, “you know he visits her every day. Do
you suppose he kisses her?”
“Dear me, Anna! what a question! I’m sure I have no idea. I suppose he
does.”
“But how can he! But you haven’t seen her as she is now, and you never
could imagine how she looks. He certainly seems to think a heap of
her all the same, and as he can see as well as I can in the dark, he
can’t help seeing that she looks old enough to be his great aunt. Well,
I’m sorry for her but I wouldn’t be related to her for a gold mine.
However, I can stand it once a week all right.”