“One reason why I hate to give him up, Mrs. Lorraine, is because he’s
Bessy’s baby and Joe’s,” she began wistfully. “He’s the only part of
them and of that life that I’ve got left, you see. Not that I want ever
to go back to it. I love the Hollow and Farleigh and all the people,
and yet there’s something that makes me feel I don’t want to forget the
other altogether. Bessy wore a pompadour that made even me shiver and
she chewed gum, and Joe would have looked like a jumping-jack beside
Reuben, and yet Bessy and Joe were both true blue. Bessy got all run
down while Joe was sick going without things so that he could have milk
and eggs, and when he got back to work he went without lunches so that
she would think his pay was the same as it had been. And if Hazel or I
or any of their friends had had hard luck, they would have taken them
in and done everything for them the same as Hazel did for Bessy when
the time came.”
She looked entreatingly into Mrs. Lorraine’s dark eyes, which were
sympathetic but perplexed.
“You can’t understand how it is, unless you live right among them, but
if you once have, there’s something mighty precious in the memory of
that life that you wouldn’t lose hold of. If I didn’t want Joe, Junior,
myself, I should want him because he’s Bessy’s and Joe’s,” she said
earnestly.
The girl was very quiet all the rest of the day. She pondered sadly
over what Mrs. Lorraine had said and over what her words had further
implied. She had not realised that they had missed her, her mother
and the boys and Miss Penny and Alice--Alice most of all, perhaps,
though her mother didn’t dream that. Perhaps she could do things for
them that others couldn’t, while the baby would really be better off
with the Langleys. Mr. Langley and Bell Adams would be wonderful with
him and it began to look as if Mrs. Langley would make a creditable
mother. And Alice needed her; and Alice’s mother needed something in
Alice which perhaps only Anna could watch out for. And Alice had never
been really happy until she was twenty and Mrs. Lorraine not until she
was forty-five. And both had been so frightfully unhappy. And there
was that terrible black shadow of the prison hanging over them for ten
years to come.
Giving up Joe, Junior, was of course only what she had planned to do
in the first place. It was only what she had worked and struggled for
ever since she had returned with the baby. And even before that, she
had been longing to discover some means of repaying Mr. Langley for all
he had done for Rusty and her family in general and to comfort him for
losing his little Ella May after all the years. Yet now that she had it
within her power to give him something that would be like his heart’s
desire, she was grudging it. But O--that darling baby! And he loved her
as he cared for no one else.