The other Miller girl — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The other Miller girl
John Stuart Mill · en
On a sudden, Anna decided to go to evening service. She had kissed the
baby in his sleep and almost thought he smiled, and as she flew over
the frozen ground, her heart grew light again. Her own words came back
to her. “The baby loves me best.” They echoed in her heart and she
almost danced along to their melody. He loved her best and therefore
he belonged to her as he could belong to no other. For, after all,
there was nothing like love. Advantages and all sorts of material goods
couldn’t compete with it. She was going to keep Joe, Junior, always.
CHAPTER XVII
Anna Miller went forth exultantly, hugging the certainty to her heart
that Joe, Junior, loved her best and that she had, therefore, a right
to keep him to grow up in an household wherein everyone loved and
wanted him. But all her elation died out at the sight of Mr. Langley’s
face as it looked down from the pulpit. He looked as he had never
looked before, and the girl knew only too well that it was all because
of the baby’s visit to the parsonage yesterday. He looked weary--at
once wistfully and radiantly weary. He looked as if he had been through
floods and stood on mountain summits. He looked, poor dear, as if he
ought to have a darling, cuddling, prattling baby at the parsonage all
the time.
So the question was unsettled again and settled the other way, though
Anna lay awake for hours that night before she announced the painful
decision formally to herself. And even then she did not dare trust
herself until she had burned all her bridges behind her. She hastened
over to the parsonage late Monday afternoon.
At the door, Big Bell enquired eagerly though shyly for the blessed
baby. When Anna told her of his feats with the picture book, Bell
laughed and choked and got out of the way quickly to conceal her
tears. Anna’s eyes were moist as she entered Mrs. Langley’s room.
“O Mrs. Langley, what do you think now?” she cried, and proceeded to
relate the story of the pictures at greater length. And as she told it,
she and Mrs. Langley laughed and cried together in new intimacy.
“Why didn’t you bring him with you?” Mrs. Langley asked wistfully. And
the girl’s heart sank to feel how fatally easy it was to be to give
away the baby. She spoke very low in order to keep her voice steady.
“Because--O, Mrs. Langley, I don’t think we’ll keep little Joe. We all
love him--even ma, but we don’t really need him and--don’t you know
someone who would like a baby boy that talks?”