The Senator's Favorite — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Senator's Favorite
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Young, beautiful, healthy, the fortunate daughter of a rich and
distinguished statesman, this girl had
"But lain in the lilies
And fed on the roses of life."
But Milton has aptly written:
"The mind is its own place, and in itself
Can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven."
Ethel Winans' life stream had been poisoned at its very source by a
baleful jealousy.
Those who knew her gifted father best were aware that his early married
life had been embittered by the faults of a passionately jealous nature
intent on supremacy in everything. This elder daughter had inherited
his beauty and his temperament. Every parental influence was working
against her happiness.
She went with a weary, listless step to her own apartments, and fell
heavily upon a silken divan. Her red lips were trembling, and tears
began to rain from her beautiful eyes.
"Why was I ever born?" she cried angrily. "No one cares for poor Ethel!
Mamma, in spite of her denials, loves my brother Earle the best, and
papa worships Precious. If I were dead they would scarcely miss me."
She began to pace up and down the luxurious room, her rich crimson silk
gown trailing soundlessly over the thick velvet carpet, her loosened
tresses pouring in a dusky torrent below her waist, her lovely jeweled
hands writhing together in agony.
"How I love him, my noble, handsome father!" she cried. "But ever since
Precious was born, before I was three years old, she has supplanted
me in everything. I can remember it all although I was so young. She
pushed me from my mother's breast, she crowded me from my father's
heart. I was no longer the petted baby. I must give way to Little Blue
Eyes, as they call her, and from the first I hated my rival. When I
was little I used to strike her, until my mother's gentle teachings
made me ashamed, and then I tried to love my little sister for mamma's
sake. I do love her. God knows I love her, for who could help it, she
is so sweet and lovely? Yet there are times--horrible times--when Satan
seems to possess my soul, and I give way to something that is awful--to
jealous hate and fury--and then, oh, then, I wish that Precious were
dead, or that I had never been born. Once I confessed all to mamma,
and she shuddered and wept at my wickedness. But she clasped me in her
tender arms, and told me that she loved me--oh, very, very much and
that she would pray for me daily! Dear mamma! she is an angel, and I
am a wicked, rebellious girl, and frighten every one with my fits of
temper and imperious ways. And I forget to pray for myself as mamma
bade me do, and when I forget, the Evil One gets possession of my weak
soul."
She fell on her knees, she lifted her streaming dark eyes heavenward.
"Oh, Heaven help me, make me a better girl, keep me from hating my dear
little sister, and save me from my own evil nature!" she prayed, with
desperate fervor.
CHAPTER II.
"LOVE TOOK UP THE GLASS OF TIME."