The Shadow of the Past — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Shadow of the Past
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"Then don't put up with them. Don't you see that in putting up with
them you are responsible for their existence. It's up to you to make a
stand for the good of the next generation."
"That's not as simple as it sounds when one has to exist," she said.
"No."
He was silent for a moment, then he returned to the attack.
"Well, you are coming with me to-night. Tell her what you like--only
come."
Events combined that evening to facilitate matters for Brenda. Several
of the younger people staying in the house arranged a walk to Camps Bay
for that evening: the plan was under discussion during dinner, so
audible a discussion that Mrs Graham could not avoid hearing it at her
table in the corner. Brenda also listened with attention; and the
manner in which she intended to put her request framed itself in her
thoughts. After dinner she approached Mrs Graham with her sentences
well considered.
"There is a walk on to-night," she observed, with the faintest trace of
nervousness apparent in her manner, and a consciousness of wilfully
deceiving. "It is such a perfect evening... I wonder if you would let
me have to-night off?"
"To-night?" Mrs Graham's tone was expostulatory. "What am I to do for
the reading?"
"I'm sorry." The girl's face looked mutinous; there was an obstinate
ring in her voice. She was not going to give in. Matheson had made
that point clear. She had to make a stand. "I will read longer
to-morrow if I may have to-night... only to-night I won't be
inconsiderate afterwards."
She felt that it was weak to promise that Why, after all, should she not
have a night free occasionally?
"But they will be away hours," Mrs Graham objected. "I shall be in bed
before you get back. There will be no one to massage my shoulder."
It trembled on Brenda's lips to promise to massage it in the morning;
but deciding that this was weak also she remained obstinately silent.
Something in the girl's manner, perhaps the unrelenting quiet of her
air; convinced Mrs Graham that opposition would avail nothing. In the
teeth of determined resistance she gave way.
"Well, of course, if you really wish to go..." she conceded with
sufficient ungraciousness. "But it is very inconvenient. I should have
thought that you had had plenty of free time lately."
She felt distinctly aggrieved. And she held a prejudice against these
expeditions when her young companion formed one of the number. There
was something not altogether seemly in the idea.
"I hope you won't be very late," she said.
Brenda followed the party from the house, and contrived to separate from
it outside the gate. She took an unnecessary turn round a block of
buildings, and came out again upon the main road and made her way on to
the beach. Matheson came forward eagerly and caught her hands.