The Shadow of the Past — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Shadow of the Past
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"Doctor enough for that sort of operation," he replied, smiling. "There
is a natural and effective way of treating all bites when one has no
artificial remedy handy."
"Oh! I don't think it is necessary to trouble you," she said quickly.
"The dog is perfectly healthy."
"That may be; but it is a wise precaution," he urged. He was quietly
insistent; but the girl was determined in her objection, which he had a
persuasion arose from prudish reasons rather than indifference to the
wound. A feeling of irritation gripped him. He wondered why he should
concern himself about her. If she chose to run risks, that was her
affair.
"I am afraid you consider my interference impertinent," he said. "It
was not meant so."
Quickly she lifted her eyes, brown, earnest eyes, to his face, and
scrutinised him closely.
"I am sorry if you really think that," she said. "And it isn't true. I
feel only gratitude for your kindness. If I thought there was the least
danger I would gladly follow your suggestion. But it's such a trifling
matter. I cried out because I was startled. I didn't think you would
hear up there by the wall."
"I happened to be watching," he said, "and saw what happened. I am glad
the injury is only slight. All the same, I wouldn't stand about; a
bandage and rest would be advisable."
"Yes," she said.
She hesitated for a moment, manifestly undecided whether to part without
thanking him formally for his kindly interest would not appear rather
ungracious. She had been prepared at first to resent his interference.
It had annoyed her when he kicked the dog; the action had struck her as
brutal, and consistent in a man who gambled away the best of the hours.
A mental picture of a sunburnt face, flushed and absorbed in the game,
of strong indolent hands fingering the cards, recurred persistently and
prejudiced her against him. She wished that she had not discovered him
thus engaged. As though he divined the reason of her hesitation, and
sought to relieve her of further embarrassment, he glanced rapidly over
his shoulder, made some remark about the necessity for following his
friend, and turned away. Abruptly the girl held out her hand.
"Thank you very much for troubling about me," she said.
"There is nothing to thank me for," he answered, facing her again with a
lazy smile. "You wouldn't let me render any service."
"Because there wasn't any need," she said quickly, as though thinking
her refusal needed explaining. "But I am obliged to you for your
concern for me."
She started to walk up the beach; and the dog, barking remonstrance that
she should forsake the sea, remained with its feet planted protestingly
in the wet sand in the hope that she would think better of it and
return. Matheson walked beside her.
"Since we are both bound for the road," he said, "may I go so far with
you?"