He watched them with a detached interest, and reflected on the many
occasions he had accompanied Honor when she fed them, carrying the
basket of mealies for her and standing by while she threw the corn. He
had chaffed her on account of her fear of the fierce clumsy birds. Fear
had seemed so altogether foreign to her nature. They had strolled over
the veld often at sunset, and listened to the ostriches' cry to the
departing day; had walked on over the rise and looked down in a pleasant
and intimate companionship upon the homestead, softened and beautified
in the evening light, upon the serried ranks of the mealie stalks, and
the cluster of native huts dotted about near the kraals. They had been
pleasant walks those. There was no doubt about it, they had had some
good times together. And now it was all ended--in a moment, like the
collapse of a pack of cards.
He quickened his pace, ruminating as he went. What exactly had
happened? It was not, he felt, only prejudice and racial animosity that
divided Honor and himself. Save in very exceptional cases, a woman does
not exalt hate above love. There was something behind, something which
he did not understand. He began to believe that he had been mistaken in
thinking that she cared. She had never cared. She felt merely
interested in him, as she might feel interested in any stranger coming
for a time into her uneventful life. There was no more in it than that.
He returned to the house when it was approaching the breakfast hour,
returned reluctantly, an unaccustomed feeling of nervousness, which
increased as he came nearer, seizing him, causing a dryness of the
throat and giving a furtiveness to his look. He did not know how he
should face Honor--what they would say to one another. He experienced
an absurd regret that she had her seat next his at table. It was not
possible to sit beside any one and remain silent.
In the garden he saw Mrs Krige. She was looking out for him; and
immediately from her face he divined that she knew. It puzzled him why
this fact should occasion him relief rather than embarrassment. Perhaps
the expression in her eyes as she came towards him assured him of her
sympathy.
"I am not late, I hope?" he said, as he joined her. "I have been taking
a last walk."
"Every one is late this morning," she replied. "Mr Marais is only now
awake, and Honor is lying down with a headache. Even Andreas was late.
I think there is thunder in the air; the weather has been very
oppressive these past few days; it upsets one."
"Yes," he agreed, following her talk only imperfectly, but grasping the
reference to Honor which seemed to point to the unlikelihood of his
seeing her again before he left. It was difficult to realise that he
had actually seen Honor for the last time.