The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
John Stuart Mill · en
"Well, believe that, then! Swallow it down if you can! I can't! He was a
Pilgrim Father in the _Mayflower_, and he fell on his knees and thanked
God as soon as he touched dry land in the true Pilgrim-Father way. But
he couldn't hold a candle to the piked man at Bosworth."
Here we were interrupted by the entrance of a footman.
"The carriage is waiting, Miss."
"Thanks,--all right. Good-night Mr Tempest,--you'd better send word to
Sibyl you are here; Lord Elton is dining out, but Sibyl will be at home
all the evening."
I offered her my arm, and escorted her to the carriage, feeling a little
sorry for her as she drove off in solitary state to the festive 'crush'
of the successful varnisher. She was a good girl, a bright girl, a true
girl,--vulgar and flippant at times, yet on the whole sincere in her
better qualities of character and sentiment,--and it was this very
sincerity which, being quite unconventional and not at all _la mode_,
was misunderstood, and would always be misunderstood by the higher and
therefore more hypocritically polished circles of English society.
I returned to the drawing-room slowly and meditatively, telling one of
the servants on my way to ask Lady Sibyl if she could see me for a few
moments. I was not kept waiting long; I had only paced the room twice up
and down when she entered, looking so strangely wild and beautiful that
I could scarcely forbear uttering an exclamation of wonder. She wore
white as was always her custom in the evenings,--her hair was less
elaborately dressed than usual, and clustered over her brow in loose
wavy masses,--her face was exceedingly pale, and her eyes appeared
larger and darker by comparison--her smile was vague and fleeting like
that of a sleep-walker. She gave me her hand; it was dry and burning.
"My father is out--" she began.
"I know. But I came to see _you_. May I stay a little?"
She murmured assent, and sinking listlessly into a chair, began to play
with some roses in a vase on the table beside her.
"You look tired Lady Sibyl,"--I said gently--"Are you not well?"
"I am quite well--" she answered--"But you are right in saying I am
tired. I am dreadfully tired!"
"You have been doing too much perhaps?--your attendance on your mother
tries you----"
She laughed bitterly.
"Attendance on my mother!--pray do not credit me with so much devotion.
I never attend on my mother. I cannot do it; I am too much of a coward.
Her face terrifies me; and whenever I do venture to go near her, she
tries to speak, with such dreadful, such ghastly efforts, as make her
more hideous to look at than anyone can imagine. I should die of fright
if I saw her often. As it is, when I do see her I can scarcely
stand--and twice I have fainted with the horror of it. To think of
it!--that that living corpse with the fearful fixed eyes and distorted
mouth should actually be _my mother_!"
She shuddered violently, and her very lips paled as she spoke. I was
seriously concerned, and told her so.