The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
John Stuart Mill · en
He nodded, and sauntered slowly away over the dewy grass. I watched his
dark tall figure receding till he had entered the house; then, lighting
a fresh cigar, I wandered on alone through the grounds, noting here and
there flowery arbours and dainty silk pavilions erected in picturesque
nooks and corners for the morrow. I looked up at the sky; it was clear
and bright,--there would be no rain. Presently I opened the wicket-gate
that led into the outer by-road, and walking on slowly, almost
unconsciously, I found myself in a few minutes opposite 'Lily Cottage.'
Approaching the gate I looked in,--the pretty old house was dark, silent
and deserted. I knew Mavis Clare was away,--and it was not strange that
the aspect of her home-nest emphasized the fact of her absence. A
cluster of climbing roses hanging from the wall, looked as if they were
listening for the first sound of her returning footsteps; across the
green breadth of the lawn where I had seen her playing with her dogs, a
tall sheaf of St John's lilies stood up white against the sky, their
pure hearts opened to the star-light and the breeze. The scent of
honey-suckle and sweet-briar filled the air with delicate
suggestions,--and as I leaned over the low fence, gazing vaguely at the
long shadows of the trees on the grass, a nightingale began to sing. The
sweet yet dolorous warble of the 'little brown lover of the moon,'
palpitated on the silence in silver-toned drops of melody; and I
listened, till my eyes smarted with a sudden moisture as of tears.
Strangely enough, I never thought of my betrothed bride Sibyl then, as
surely, by all the precedents of passion, I should have done at such a
moment of dreamful ecstasy. It was another woman's face that floated
before my memory;--a face not beautiful,--but merely sweet,--and made
radiant by the light of two tender, wistful, wonderfully innocent
eyes,--a face like that of some new Daphne with the mystic laurel
springing from her brows. The nightingale sang on and on,--the tall
lilies swayed in the faint wind as though nodding wise approval of the
bird's wild music,--and, gathering one briar-rose from the hedge, I
turned away with a curious heaviness at my heart,--a trouble I could not
analyse or account for. I explained my feeling partly to myself as one
of regret that I had ever taken up my pen to assault, with sneer and
flippant jest, the gentle and brilliantly endowed owner of this little
home where peace and pure content dwelt happily in student-like
seclusion;--but this was not all. There was something else in my
mind,--something inexplicable and sad,--which then I had no skill to
define. I know now what it was,--but the knowledge comes too late!