The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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"True,--you can wait, Mavis Clare!" he said in deep clear tones from
which all sadness had fled--"You can afford to wait! Tell me,--think for
a moment!--can you remember me? Is there a time on which you can look
back, and looking, see my face, not here but elsewhere? Think! Did you
ever see me long ago--in a far sphere of beauty and light, when you were
an Angel, Mavis,--and I was--not what I am now! How you tremble! You
need not fear me,--I would not harm you for a thousand worlds! I talk
wildly at times I know;--I think of things that are past,--long long
past,--and I am filled with regrets that burn my soul with fiercer heat
than fire! And so neither world's wealth, world's power, nor world's
love will tempt you, Mavis!--and you,--a woman! You are a living miracle
then,--as miraculous as the drop of undefiled dew which reflects in its
tiny circumference all the colours of the sky, and sinks into the earth
sweetly, carrying moisture and refreshment where it falls. I can do
nothing for you--you will not have my aid--you reject my service? Then
as I may not help you, you must help _me_!"--and dropping before her, he
reverently took her hand and kissed it--"I ask a very little thing of
you,--pray for me! I know you are accustomed to pray, so it will be no
trouble to you,--_you_ believe God hears you,--and when I look at you,
_I_ believe it too. Only a pure woman can make faith possible to man.
Pray for me then, as one who has fallen from his higher and better
self,--who strives, but who may not attain,--who labours under heavy
punishment,--who would fain reach Heaven, but who by the cursëd will of
man, and man alone, is kept in Hell! Pray for me, Mavis Clare! promise
it!--and so shall you lift me a step nearer the glory I have lost!"
I listened, petrified with amazement. Could this be Lucio?--the mocking,
careless, cynical scoffer I knew, as I thought, so well?--was it really
he who knelt thus like a repentant sinner, abasing his proud head before
a woman? I saw Mavis release her hand from his, the while she stood
looking down upon him in alarm and bewilderment. Presently she spoke in
sweet yet tremulous accents--
"Since you desire it so earnestly, I promise,"--she said--"I will pray
that the strange and bitter sorrow which seems to consume you may be
removed from your life----"