The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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justice as well as shame held me back from doing her that indignity even
in my thoughts. However I was too much impressed with my own vast
resources of unlimited wealth, to realize the fact that anyone who, like
Mavis, earns independence by intellectual work and worth alone, is
entitled to feel a far greater pride than those who by mere chance of
birth or heritage become the possessors of millions. Then again, Mavis
Clare's literary position was, though I liked her personally, always a
kind of reproach to me when I thought of my own abortive efforts to win
the laurels of fame. So that on the whole I was glad she did not spend
that day with us in the woods;--of course, if I had paid any attention
to the "trifles which make up the sum of life" I should have remembered
that Lucio had told her he would "meet her no more on earth,"--but I
judged this to be a mere trifle of hasty and melodramatic speech,
without any intentional meaning.
So my last twenty-four hours of happiness passed away in halcyon
serenity,--I felt a sense of deepening pleasure in existence, and I
began to believe that the future had brighter things in store for me
than I had lately ventured to expect. Sibyl's new phase of gentleness
and tenderness towards me, combined with her rare beauty, seemed to
augur that the misunderstandings between us would be of short duration,
and that her nature, too early rendered harsh and cynical by a 'society'
education would soften in time to that beautiful womanliness which is,
after all, woman's best charm. Thus I thought, in blissful and contented
reverie, reclining under the branching autumnal foliage, with my fair
wife beside me, and listening to the rich tones of my friend Lucio's
magnificent voice pealing forth sonorous, wild melodies, as the sunset
deepened in the sky and the twilight shadows fell. Then came the
night--the night which dropped only for a few hours over the quiet
landscape, but for ever over me!