The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
John Stuart Mill · en
"Have you one to give?" he asked derisively--"Is it not already disposed
of? You should make sure of that first! Stay where you are and let me
look at you! So!--a woman, wearing a husband's name, holding a
husband's honour, clothed in the very garments purchased with a
husband's money, and newly risen from a husband's side, steals forth
thus in the night, seeking to disgrace him and pollute herself by the
vulgarest unchastity! And this is all that the culture and training of
nineteenth-century civilization can do for you? Myself, I prefer the
barbaric fashion of old times, when rough savages fought for their women
as they fought for their cattle, treated them as cattle, and kept them
in their place, never dreaming of endowing them with such strong virtues
as truth and honour! If women were pure and true, then the lost
happiness of the world might return to it,--but the majority of them are
like you, liars, ever pretending to be what they are not. I may do what
I choose with you, you say? torture you, kill you, brand you with the
name of outcast in the public sight, and curse you before Heaven--if I
will only love you!--all this is melodramatic speech, and I never cared
for melodrama at any time. I shall neither kill you, brand you, curse
you, nor love you;--I shall simply--call your husband!"
I stirred from my hiding-place,--then stopped. She sprang to her feet in
an insensate passion of anger and shame.
"You dare not!" she panted--"You dare not so ... disgrace me!"
"Disgrace you!" he echoed scornfully--"That remark comes rather late,
seeing you have disgraced yourself!"
But she was now fairly roused. All the savagery and obstinacy of her
nature was awakened, and she stood like some beautiful wild animal at
bay, trembling from head to foot with the violence of her emotions.
"You repulse me,--you scorn me!" she muttered in hurried fierce accents
that scarcely rose above an angry whisper--"You make a mockery of my
heart's anguish and despair, but you shall suffer for it! I am your
match,--nay your equal! You shall not spurn me a second time! You ask,
will I love you when I know who you are,--it is your pleasure to deal in
mysteries, but I have no mysteries--I am a woman who loves you with all
the passion of a life,--and I will murder myself and you, rather than
live to know that I have prayed you for your love in vain. Do you think
I came unprepared?--no!" and she suddenly drew from her bosom a short
steel dagger with a jewelled hilt, a _curio_ I recognized as one of the
gifts to her on her marriage; "Love me, I say!--or I will stab myself
dead here at your feet, and cry out to Geoffrey that you have murdered
me!"
She raised the weapon aloft,--I almost sprang forward--but I drew back
again quickly as I saw Lucio seize the hand that held the dagger and
drag it firmly down,--while, wresting the weapon from her clutch he
snapped it asunder and flung the pieces on the floor.