The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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"Your place was the stage, Madam!" he said--"You should have been the
chief female mime at some 'high-class' theatre! You would have adorned
the boards, drawn the mob, had as many lovers, stagey and private as you
pleased, been invited to act at Windsor, obtained a payment-jewel from
the Queen, and written your name in her autograph album. That should
undoubtedly have been your 'great' career--you were born for it--made
for it! You would have been as brute-souled as you are now,--but that
would not have mattered,--mimes are exempt from chastity!"
In the action of breaking the dagger, and in the intense bitterness of
his speech he had thrust her back a few paces from him, and she stood
breathless and white with rage, eyeing him in mingled passion and
terror. For a moment she was silent,--then advancing slowly with the
feline suppleness of movement which had given her a reputation for grace
exceeding that of any woman in England, she said in deliberately
measured accents--
"Lucio Rimânez, I have borne your insults as I would bear my death at
your hands, because I love you. You loathe me, you say--you repulse
me,--I love you still! You cannot cast me off--I am yours! You shall
love me, or I will die,--one of the two. Take time for thought,--I leave
you to-night,--I give you all to-morrow to consider,--love me,--give me
yourself,--be my lover,--and I will play the comedy of social life as
well as any other woman,--so well that my husband shall never know. But
refuse me again as you have refused me now, and I will make away with
myself. I am not 'acting,'--I am speaking calmly and with conviction; I
mean what I say!"
"Do you?" queried Lucio coldly--"Let me congratulate you! Few women
attain to such coherence!"
"I will put an end to this life of mine;" she went on, paying no sort of
heed to his words--"I cannot endure existence without your love, Lucio!"
and a dreary pathos vibrated in her voice--"I hunger for the kisses of
your lips,--the clasp of your arms! Do you know--do you ever think of
your own power?--the cruel, terrible power of your eyes, your speech,
your smile,--the beauty which makes you more like an angel than a
man,--and have you no pity? Do you think that ever a man was born like
you?" he looked at her as she said this, and a faint smile rested on his
lips--"When you speak, I hear music--when you sing, it seems to me that
I understand what the melodies of a poet's heaven must be;--surely,
surely you know that your very looks are a snare to the warm weak soul
of a woman! Lucio!--" and emboldened by his silence, she stole nearer to
him--"Meet me to-morrow in the lane near the cottage of Mavis Clare...."
He started as if he had been stung--but not a word escaped him.