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be easily filled up,--she was merely one butterfly out of thousands,
more daintily coloured perhaps and more restless in flight,--but never
judged as more than up to the butterfly standard. I said no one gave her
an honest regret, but I was wrong. Mavis Clare was genuinely, almost
passionately grieved. She sent no flowers for the coffin, but she came
to the funeral by herself, and stood a little apart waiting silently
till the grave was covered in,--and then, just as the "fashionable"
train of mourners were leaving the churchyard, she advanced and placed a
white cross of her own garden-lilies upon the newly-turned brown mould.
I noticed her action, and determined that before I left Willowsmere for
the East with Lucio (for my journey had only been postponed a week or
two on account of Sibyl's death) she should know all.
The day came when I carried out this resolve. It was a rainy and chill
afternoon, and I found Mavis in her study, sitting beside a bright log
fire with her small terrier in her lap and her faithful St Bernard
stretched at her feet. She was absorbed in a book,--and over her watched
the marble Pallas inflexible and austere. As I entered she rose, and
putting down the volume and her pet dog together, she advanced to meet
me with an intense sympathy in her clear eyes, and a wordless pity in
the tremulous lines of her sweet mouth. It was charming to see how sorry
she felt for me,--and it was odd that I could not feel sorry for myself.
After a few words of embarrassed greeting I sat down and watched her
silently, while she arranged the logs in the fire to make them burn
brighter, and for the moment avoided my gaze.
"I suppose you know,"--I began with harsh abruptness--"that the
sleeping-draught story is a polite fiction? You know that my wife
poisoned herself intentionally?"
Mavis looked at me with a troubled and compassionate expression.
"I feared it was so--" ... she began nervously.
"Oh there is nothing either to fear or to hope"--I said with some
violence--"_She did it._ And can you guess why she did it? Because she
was mad with her own wickedness and sensuality,--because she loved with
a guilty love, my friend Lucio Rimânez."
Mavis gave a little cry as of pain, and sat down white and trembling.
"You can read quickly, I am sure,"--I went on. "Part of the profession
of literature is the ability to skim books and manuscripts rapidly, and
grasp the whole gist of them in a few minutes;--read _this_--" and I
handed her the rolled-up pages of Sibyl's dying declaration--"Let me
stay here, while you learn from that what sort of a woman she was, and
judge whether, despite her beauty, she is worth a regret!"
"Pardon me,--" said Mavis gently--"I would rather not read what was not
meant for my eyes."