The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
John Stuart Mill · en
"But it _is_ meant for your eyes,"--I retorted impatiently--"It is meant
for everybody's eyes apparently,--it is addressed to nobody in
particular. There is a mention of you in it. I beg--nay I command you to
read it!--I want your opinion on it,--your advice; you may possibly
suggest, after perusal, the proper sort of epitaph I ought to inscribe
on the monument I am going to build to her sacred and dear memory!"
I covered my face with one hand to hide the bitter smile which I knew
betrayed my thoughts, and pushed the manuscript towards her. Very
reluctantly she took it,--and slowly unrolling it, began to read. For
several minutes there was a silence, broken only by the crackling of the
logs on the fire, and the regular breathing of the dogs who now both lay
stretched comfortably in front of the wood blaze. I looked covertly at
the woman whose fame I had envied,--at the slight figure, the coronal of
soft hair,--the delicate, drooping sensitive face,--the small white
classic hand that held the written sheets of paper so firmly, yet so
tenderly,--the very hand of the Greek marble Psyche;--and I thought what
short-sighted asses some literary men are who suppose they can succeed
in shutting out women like Mavis Clare from winning everything that fame
or fortune can offer. Such a head as hers, albeit covered with locks
fair and caressable, was not meant, in its fine shape and compactness,
for submission to inferior intelligences whether masculine or
feminine,--that determined little chin which the firelight delicately
outlined, was a visible declaration of the strength of will and the
indomitably high ambition of its owner,--and yet, ... the soft
eyes,--the tender mouth,--did not these suggest the sweetest love, the
purest passion that ever found place in a woman's heart? I lost myself
in dreamy musing,--I thought of many things that had little to do with
either my own past or present. I realized that now and then at rare
intervals God makes a woman of genius with a thinker's brain and an
angel's soul,--and that such an one is bound to be a destiny to all
mortals less divinely endowed, and a glory to the world in which she
dwells. So considering, I studied Mavis Clare's face and form,--I saw
her eyes fill with tears as she read on;--why should she weep, I
wondered, over that 'last document' which had left me unmoved and
callous? I was startled almost as if from sleep when her voice,
thrilling with pain, disturbed the stillness,--she sprang up, gazing at
me as if she saw some horrible vision.
"Oh, are you so blind," she cried, "as not to see what this means? Can
you not understand? Do you not know your worst enemy?"