The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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"The reluctant acceptance of such terrific knowledge as is forced upon
me,--" he replied with a dark smile--"I do not say I have been an apt or
a willing pupil,--I have had to suffer in learning what I know!"
"Do you believe in hell?" I asked him suddenly--"And in Satan, the
Arch-Enemy of mankind?"
He was silent for so long that I was surprised, the more so as he grew
pale to the lips, and a curious, almost deathlike rigidity of feature
gave his expression something of the ghastly and terrible. After a pause
he turned his eyes upon me,--an intense burning misery was reflected in
them, though he smiled.
"Most assuredly I believe in hell! How can I do otherwise if I believe
in heaven? If there is an Up there must be a Down; if there is Light,
there must also be Darkness! And, ... concerning the Arch-Enemy of
mankind,--if half the stories reported of him be true, he must be the
most piteous and pitiable figure in the Universe! What would be the
sorrows of a thousand million worlds, compared to the sorrows of Satan!"
"Sorrows!" I echoed--"He is supposed to rejoice in the working of evil!"
"Neither angel nor devil can do that,"--he said slowly--"To rejoice in
the working of evil is a temporary mania which affects man only. For
actual joy to come out of evil, Chaos must come again, and God must
extinguish Himself." He stared across the dark sea,--the sun had sunk,
and one faint star twinkled through the clouds. "And so I again say--the
sorrows of Satan! Sorrows immeasurable as eternity itself,--imagine
them! To be shut out of Heaven!--to hear all through the unending æons,
the far-off voices of angels whom once he knew and loved!--to be a
wanderer among deserts of darkness, and to pine for the light celestial
that was formerly as air and food to his being,--and to know that Man's
folly, Man's utter selfishness, Man's cruelty, keep him thus exiled, an
outcast from pardon and peace! Man's nobleness may lift the Lost Spirit
almost within reach of his lost joys,--but Man's vileness drags him down
again,--easy was the torture of Sisyphus compared with the torture of
Satan! No wonder that he loathes Mankind!--small blame to him if he
seeks to destroy the puny tribe eternally,--little marvel that he
grudges them their share of immortality! Think of it as a legend
merely,"--and he turned upon me with a movement that was almost
fierce--"Christ redeemed Man,--and by his teaching, showed how it was
possible for Man to redeem the Devil!"
"I do not understand you--" I said feebly, awed by the strange pain and
passion of his tone.