The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
"This is immensely surprising, Hallam," he said. "I have not yet
recovered from the amazement which the receipt of your cablegram caused
me. You see, I--we all concluded you were dead. The mistake was
perfectly natural."
"I grant that," Hallam answered, considerably mystified and a little
annoyed by the other's manner. "At the same time I don't see why it
should be regarded in the light of a misfortune that I am not dead."
"My dear fellow! Certainly not. But you must allow for a certain--
astonishment. I might even put it more strongly. Your return after so
long a period calls for such an abrupt readjustment. There have been
changes. I don't see how you can expect otherwise. I've sat in this
chair day after day since receiving your cable trying to resolve some
way out of the muddle. I haven't communicated with--with your wife.
You didn't instruct us, so I've done nothing."
"Quite right," Hallam said.
"I prefer to see her myself."
"You haven't written?"
"No. I am going home when I leave here."
"But Mrs Hallam has left Cape Town. She gave up the house and went
round to Port Elizabeth and took a house there. Since then she--she has
given up that house also, I believe. In fact I know she has. We manage
her affairs for her."
Hallam nodded.
"I see nothing very extraordinary in these changes," he said. "It was
not to be expected that she should remain in Cape Town alone. She has
relations at the Bay."
Mr Huntley was silent. He took up from the desk before him, and put
down again, a little sheaf of papers, and fidgeted with a pen lying
beside the blotting-pad. He looked as he felt, immensely embarrassed.
"My dear Hallam," he burst forth at length, "I don't wish to appear to
criticise your actions, but your absence--your complete disappearance,
in fact, seems to me inexplicable. That is how it would strike any
unbiassed person. Whatever your private reasons were for leaving your
home, you might at least have kept us informed as to your whereabouts.
It would have prevented a great deal of subsequent distress."
Hallam looked at the speaker in surprise. The last thing he had
anticipated was this tone of rebuke from his old friend. That Huntley
should suppose he had deliberately suppressed all information relating
to himself struck him as an unjust view to take; he resented it.
"I have been a prisoner in Germany since the beginning of the war," he
said quietly. "I wrote home many letters in the early days of my
captivity. I wrote to you. Oh! there's no need to tell me you never
received it. I got no replies to anything I sent out; so I left off
writing after a time. My case was not exceptional."
Huntley leaned with his arm along the desk and looked earnestly into
Hallam's eyes: his own eyes expressed an immense sympathy.
"Good God, Hallam!" he said.
Suddenly he grasped Hallam's hand and wrung it hard.