The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
"I am sorry I missed the sunrise," she said, relenting, and wishful to
make amends. "Tell me about it."
He smiled faintly.
"Can any one describe a sunrise?" he asked. "Are there any words in our
language which will paint nature in her most wonderful aspects? If
there are I am ignorant of them. You must go out and see these things
for yourself."
This was not encouraging, but she persevered. A sort of inflexible
determination to abolish finally the frigid distances he insistently
maintained armed her with a temporary bravado which amazed herself. It
probably amazed him equally, but he made no sign if so.
"I do not like seeing things by myself. Won't you let me accompany you
some morning?"
"Most assuredly," he answered, after a barely perceptible hesitation.
"But quite possibly you will miss your breakfast. I tramp far."
"I shall not complain," she said. "If you are equal to fasting I have
no doubt I can stand it."
Hallam looked quietly amused. He surveyed her quite steadily for the
fraction of a second, and then very deliberately turned his attention
again to his plate.
"Do you really think," he asked presently, "that your endurance is equal
to mine? You don't look to me very strong."
She was thinking the same about him, but she did not voice her thought.
Possibly he read what she was thinking in her face when he glanced again
momentarily towards her; whether this were so or not, he added after a
pause:
"My constitution is made of cast iron. If it were not it would have
broken down long ago. Notwithstanding that my hand has difficulty in
raising this glass without spilling its contents, I could lift you with
it as easily as I could lift a feather."
She looked at the hand stretched out towards the glass of milk and soda
beside his plate, and noticed how it shook, and wondered that he should
draw her attention to it. He had done so intentionally, mastering his
usual self-consciousness in regard to this physical defect, for what
reason she failed to understand. Oddly, she felt no embarrassment while
she looked at his hand, and he betrayed none either. He lifted the
glass unsteadily and drank from it and set it down again on the cloth.
"I have travelled for a week on a pocketful of dried mealies, and been
none the worse for it," he said. "But I shouldn't recommend that diet
for you."
"I think," she said unexpectedly and without annoyance, "that you don't
wish to be bothered with my company."
"From the fear that I may have to carry you?" he suggested. "You are
mistaken. If you like to be energetic to-morrow I will show you where
best to view the sunrise. And I promise you that if we miss our
breakfast here I will take you to a house where I can obtain a meal at
any hour of the day."
"You breakfasted there this morning?" she said, turning a face flushed
with pleasure to his.
"I breakfasted there this morning. They are accustomed to my irregular
habits, and they don't mind."
"That will be nice," she said.