The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
The rose pink in the sky deepened, spread itself warmly over the blue
expanse, reflected warmly upon the silent, neutral tinted world; changed
the face of the land as it changed the face of the sky; brightening and
intensifying the colour in the grass, in the leaves of the trees,
painting the flowers wonderfully; transforming everything with the glow
and warmth of life. The world threw off its lethargy of slumber and
lifted its face wakefully to the flood of sunlight which broke through
the rose and azure in a flash of gold.
Esme stood transfixed, with eyes turned to the sunrise. She felt the
warmth of the sun on her face, on her hands, on her body. It was like
being gripped in a warm embrace, startling and a little disconcerting by
its very suddenness. The gold of it poured over her like an amber
flame. The man, standing beside her, watched the sun-bathed, radiant
figure, and saw the wonder in her eyes, and remained silent, attentive,
marking nothing of the glory in the changing heavens, seeing only the
startled gladness in a girl's sweet face, and the glowing brightness of
her figure against the sunlit dust of the road.
While he stood observing her the thought took shape in his mind and
grew, as he watched her simple delight in what at another time would
have delighted him equally, but which now he scarcely heeded, that it
was an eternal shame he should of his own act, through his lack of
endeavour, reduce himself to a level which divided him from her, and
from women like her, as widely as the gorge was divided from the
heights. But a steep uphill road connected gorge and heights. He
looked down the road and up at the heights and frowned. Then
deliberately he turned his attention away from the girl and started idly
to trace patterns with his stick in the dust. She looked round at him
with happy eyes, in which surprise gathered as she noted his
preoccupation.
"But you are not watching the sunrise!" she exclaimed.
"It is disappointing," he replied. "Yesterday it was finer. It is one
of nature's exhaustless perplexities that she never reveals herself in
the same guise twice. Shall we go on?"
She started to walk again, a little chilled, she scarcely knew why, by
his manner. She decided that possibly he enjoyed best seeing these
things alone. Some people take their pleasures selfishly; he might be
one of these. To her the sunrise had been wonderful; and she longed to
express her admiration, to share it; but this grave and silent companion
made her silent also. She felt disappointed. He stole a glance at her
serious face, and his features relaxed; a smile played about the corners
of his mouth.
"You had better take off your coat," he said. "The sun soon makes his
power felt."
He helped her to remove the coat, and threw it over his shoulder and
walked on, holding it with his disengaged hand.
"If the people at the hotel could see us they would be amazed," he said.