The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
Esme had a tiny bedroom at the back, overlooking a cemented yard. There
was one beauty in this yard, a huge oleander tree, the dark green leaves
of which and the clusters of sweet-scented pink blossoms reared
themselves against her window and shaded and perfumed her little room.
If the oleander had been stricken by drought, or any other mischance had
befallen it to cause it to die, the house would have been unbearable to
the girl. As it was, the oleander made life possible, even when the
children were troublesome, and when her sister and her husband
quarrelled. They quarrelled frequently; over the children, over the
housekeeping expenses, over the lack of money. Lack of money was the
principal grievance.
Esme boarded with them, because it seemed more natural to stay with her
own people than with strangers, and because her sister liked to have
her. But she was not fond of her brother-in-law; and the constant
disagreements worried her.
It seemed to her, when she entered the house after her pleasant holiday,
that she had left all the peace and romance behind and returned to the
drab reality of the common daily round. Her sister welcomed her with
restrained pleasure, but the children hung about her in unqualified
delight, bubbling over in childish fashion with excitement at her
return.
"You are looking well," her sister remarked. "I wish I could take a
holiday. Single girls don't realise how lucky they are until after they
are married. Jim and I spent our honeymoon at the Zuurberg. I thought
it dull."
Esme reflected, while she regarded her sister with a puzzled scrutiny,
that it was scarcely surprising her marriage had proved on the whole a
disappointing affair. To feel dull on one's honeymoon is not a
promising beginning.
"I thought it wonderful," she said.
"You had a good time, I suppose. Were there many people there?"
"A fair number. But it's the place itself. It is lovely."
Mrs Bainbridge looked unconvinced.
"People, not places, make a holiday enjoyable," she said with a certain
worldly wisdom which jarred on her hearer. "Were there any men there?"
"A few--yes."
Her sister laughed.
"You always get on with men," she said. "I wonder you don't marry."
"But, according to your view, that would be a mistake."
"Not if the man were well off. It is having to cheese-pare that makes
the shoe pinch. Marriage has its compensations." Her gaze rested
reflectively on the children. "One grumbles," she said; "but one
wouldn't undo all of it."
"_I'm_ never going to marry," John, aged eight, announced with sturdy
determination. "I've seen too much of it."
His mother laughed, and Esme caught him up and kissed him.
"That's for you, you stony-hearted little misogynist," she said, as he
struggled to elude her embrace.
"John's a silly kid," Mary, his senior by two years, announced in the
crushing tones of a person who resents a slight to her sex.