The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
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Maggie promptly came forward and fed the voracious little stove with a
fresh supply of logs.
"This stove eat wood. Missis should see. I put plenty logs on."
"She's right, you know," Rose said, stepping back, and pushing the hair
from her face. "Jim ought to buy a new stove. He'd save money on it in
the long run. But he hasn't the cooking to do; he merely grumbles when
he has to order the wood. Is the table laid, Maggie? Then you can
begin to dish up."
She put a hand through her sister's arm and drew her out to the
doorstep, where they stood watching the children, both a little silent
and thoughtful in mood.
"Aren't you hating it, being back again?" Rose asked presently, and
bent a keen look on her young sister's face. Esme looked up to smile.
"I suppose one always feels a little regretful at the finish of a
holiday," she said. "But of course I don't hate being back."
Rose did not press the point. Something in the girl's manner, something
even in the reticence she betrayed in speaking of her holiday, puzzled
her. Esme was usually more expansive. She did not seem to wish to talk
of her experiences. Perhaps, after all, she had had a disappointing
time. But the rest and the change had given her back her strength. Had
it? Rose looked at her again more attentively. She appeared to be in
excellent health; but she had lost her old gaiety; she seemed depressed.
"You are tired after the journey," she said. "Come on in and have
something to eat."
She called the children away from their play; and they all went into the
little dining-room and sat, crowded uncomfortably, round the small
table.
Jim served the food, and was jocular and determinedly cheerful. He was
pleased to have his sister-in-law home again. It was all rather noisy
and uncomfortable. The girl's thoughts strayed to the long shady room
at the Zuurberg, and to the silent companionship of the man whose
presence she was missing more than she would have thought possible. And
it was only a few hours since they had parted. There would follow many
hours, many days, many weeks. She wondered whether she would miss him
less as the days went by, or if this intolerable loneliness would grow.
It was distressing to think that she might never see him again. She
wondered also whether he missed her. She hoped he did. And then she
fell to picturing him reverting perhaps to the old evening practice of
drinking steadily, until finally he stumbled along the stoep on his way
to bed... Surely not that! If her friendship counted for anything at
all in his life its influence would linger with him and have some
deterrent effect.
"Sling along the Adam's ale, old girl," said Jim at this point in her
reverie. It was one of his boasts that he didn't pour his money down
his throat.