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The trap : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 8
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She listened. Here, perhaps, as the Bannermans now appeared in her mind
for the first time since she left home, would be light upon that
long-forgotten mystery. But a question intruded. Why, since their voices
followed the same pattern of sound and bore the same suggestion of being
at loggerheads with the social order, why had not the Lycurgans recalled
the Bannerman girls? Certainly if they were alive and in London, all
three were now active members of the Lycurgan society; the amused
superiority in their voices added to the Lycurgan tide of amused
superiority to everything on earth.
Yet these women who had brought them back, though they had the Lycurgan
voice, had nothing of the crisp cocksureness of the socialist
intelligentsia. They were unanimously belabouring someone, hitting out
right and left, but within their expressive voices, moulding their
lively scorn, animating the unvarying tone-shape of the
intelligentsia-in-argument, was _sorrow_.
The coming of their tea brought a pause. With the ceasing of their
voices warmth withdrew from the sound of the room, and returned at the
first phrase sounding together with the cheerful gush of tea hurriedly
poured.
“Well, I think it’s just simply incomprehensible.”
Miriam knew it was not. She half turned, strangely sure that they would
welcome her and quite simply state a case. They were not a clique.
Something in their voices related them to everybody in the world. They
had the selflessness of those who keep an eye everywhere, without
discrimination of persons. They would be at once interested, even in
herself, and quite blind. She turned and found a group of three, three
small women with one face; a face she knew well at Lycurgan meetings and
liked, but always with a queer thrill of uncertainty. It was vital,
intimately intelligent, and yet alien, seeming at once to light up and
to darken its surroundings.
The club, she thought as she turned gladly back to the loneliness
created by Miss Holland’s surrounded state, was going to get hold of her
in a way of which she had never dreamed, since at the outset it had
brought her to the edge of the whirlpool of people with whom this dark
face was in her mind so richly associated. Set in a row of Lycurgan
faces, all screened, more or less, in the English way and not different,
in silence, from a row of Primrose League faces, this one face would
stand out, a pale, bony oval set with crisp hair; and eyes, under dark
brows, richly despairingly intent. The moment the lecture was over it
would be visible, now here now there, and always in eager speech.
Small wonder, since it turned out to be three, that she was always
seeing it.
“Now Mrs. Wilson _is_ charming,” said one. “A far more charming
personality than he.”