The Trimmed Lamp, and Other Stories of the Four Million — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Trimmed Lamp, and Other Stories of the Four Million
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She walked a mile and clicked the latch of a gate. A bare, brown
cottage stood twenty yards back; an old man with a pearl-white,
Calvinistic face and clothes dyed blacker than a raven in a coal-mine
was washing his hands in a tin basin on the front porch.
“How are you, father?” said Mary timidly.
“I am as well as Providence permits, Mary Ann. You will find your
mother in the kitchen.”
In the kitchen a cryptic, gray woman kissed her glacially on the
forehead, and pointed out the potatoes which were not yet peeled for
breakfast. Mary sat in a wooden chair and decorticated spuds, with a
thrill in her heart.
For breakfast there were grace, cold bread, potatoes, bacon, and tea.
“You are pursuing the same avocation in the city concerning which you
have advised us from time to time by letter, I trust,” said her father.
“Yes,” said Mary, “I am still reviewing books for the same
publication.”
After breakfast she helped wash the dishes, and then all three sat in
straight-back chairs in the bare-floored parlor.
“It is my custom,” said the old man, “on the Sabbath day to read aloud
from the great work entitled the ‘Apology for Authorized and Set Forms
of Liturgy,’ by the ecclesiastical philosopher and revered theologian,
Jeremy Taylor.”
“I know it,” said Mary blissfully, folding her hands.
For two hours the numbers of the great Jeremy rolled forth like the
notes of an oratorio played on the violoncello. Mary sat gloating in
the new sensation of racking physical discomfort that the wooden chair
brought her. Perhaps there is no happiness in life so perfect as the
martyr’s. Jeremy’s minor chords soothed her like the music of a
tom-tom. “Why, oh why,” she said to herself, “does some one not write
words to it?”
At eleven they went to church in Crocusville. The back of the pine
bench on which she sat had a penitential forward tilt that would have
brought St. Simeon down, in jealousy, from his pillar. The preacher
singled her out, and thundered upon her vicarious head the damnation of
the world. At each side of her an adamant parent held her rigidly to
the bar of judgment. An ant crawled upon her neck, but she dared not
move. She lowered her eyes before the congregation—a hundred-eyed
Cerberus that watched the gates through which her sins were fast
thrusting her. Her soul was filled with a delirious, almost a fanatic
joy. For she was out of the clutch of the tyrant, Freedom. Dogma and
creed pinioned her with beneficent cruelty, as steel braces bind the
feet of a crippled child. She was hedged, adjured, shackled, shored up,
strait-jacketed, silenced, ordered. When they came out the minister
stopped to greet them. Mary could only hang her head and answer “Yes,
sir,” and “No, sir,” to his questions. When she saw that the other
women carried their hymn-books at their waists with their left hands,
she blushed and moved hers there, too, from her right.