The Triumph of Jill — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Triumph of Jill
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"Very true," she replied, "I had not forgotten that; it is too gigantic
a fact to be overlooked. Nevertheless, as I believe I remarked before,
the coals and the stairs are likely to prove too great odds; facts--even
gigantic ones--have a way of vanishing before great personal
discomfort."
He reached down his overcoat and thrust his arms into the sleeves
without passing any comment on her last remark; there was such an
extreme possibility, not in the stairs, or the coals, but in herself
proving too much for him that he refrained from contradicting her. Jill
watched him busily without appearing to do so until he was ready to go,
and stood, hat in hand, apparently undecided whether to shake hands or
no.
"Good morning," she said, and bowed in so distant a manner, that,
regretting his former indecision, he bowed back, and turning round went
out with an equally brief salutation.
When he had gone Jill sat down in his seat and fell to studying his
work.
"`Shall I be any good at it?'" she mimicked, and then she laughed aloud.
"`Do you think that I am likely to be any good at it?' No, I do not,
Mr St. John, I don't indeed."
CHAPTER THREE.
When St. John left the studio it was with so sore a feeling of
resentment against Miss Erskine that it seemed to him most unlikely that
he would ever re-enter it. It was not that he disliked her; he did not,
but he had an uncomfortable conviction that she disliked him, and felt
aggrieved at his presence even while she suffered it on account of the
fee. He remembered with some vexation that he had almost forced her
into accepting him as a pupil, for poor as she undoubtedly was she had
plainly evinced that she had no desire to instruct him. Never mind, he
would atone for his persistence by sending her his cheque and troubling
the studio no more; that at any rate would show her that he had no wish
to intrude. This decision being final he dismissed the matter from his
mind, and, as a proof of the consistency of human nature, on Friday
morning at the specified hour he stood on the dirty steps outside Miss
Erskine's lodgings knocking with his walking-stick on the knockerless
door. The modest Isobel opened it after a wait of some five minutes--
minutes in which he had time to recall his past determination and to
wonder at himself for having so speedily altered his mind--and having
opened it startled him considerably by firing at him without giving him
time for speech the vague yet all comprehensive information.
"She's hout."
"Miss Erskine?" he queried in very natural astonishment.
"Yus; been gone over 'arf a nour."
"But," remonstrated St. John, "the Art School opens at half past nine,
it is after that now."
"Carnt 'elp it, she's hout."
"It is a very strange procedure," he exclaimed in visible annoyance. "I
come to the Art School at the hour it should open and Miss Erskine is
out."