The Triumph of Jill — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Triumph of Jill
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Jill offered it to her husband when she had finished reading, but St.
John put her hand aside, and shook his head decisively.
"You know that that isn't necessary between you and me," he said
reproachfully.
"I think he would like you to see it," she answered.
He took it then and read it through; when he had done so he handed it
back again with a grave half-troubled smile.
"Considering how I, myself, was mistaken," he said, "I don't think that
I have the right to censure him at all."
Jill tore the note up slowly, watching the fragments intently as they
fluttered from her fingers. The knowledge that her husband had
misjudged her was the bitterest part of all. And yet in her heart she
did not blame him; she even found excuses for him, but the pain was none
the less acute because she refused to admit its reason, though no doubt
it was easier borne, and would be more readily forgotten.
"I am very much afraid," she said gently, with a slight hesitation of
tone and manner, "that I, also, must have been at fault to cause two men
to make the same mistake. I don't suppose that I have any right to
blame him either. I think the wisest course would be to do as he
suggests--forgive everything, and forget."
And as St. John was of the same opinion the matter ended there, and if
not entirely forgotten was at least never referred to between them
again.
CHAPTER NINETEEN.
It was just two years after Jill's baby had been born that a very
wonderful thing occurred; Mr St. John senior visited Thompkins and Co.
for no less a purpose than calling upon his son's wife. He did not come
unexpectedly; he wrote a week beforehand apprising them of the fact, and
duly on the appointed date he pushed open the outer door and entered the
mean little shop, standing in it, as it were, protestingly, his hat off,
his shoulders slightly bowed; tall, and cross, and dignified--frowning
at his son. St. John came forward quickly. He was expecting his father
but pride forbade his making any preparation. He had been in the studio
during the early part of the afternoon and was still in his working
clothes though Jill had suggested to him the propriety of changing, but
he had chosen to ignore the suggestion, arguing that that which was good
enough for his wife should be good enough for his father too; and so he
came forward as he was and stood in front of the visitor just as he
might have done had he been any ordinary customer. The old man's glance
travelled slowly from the strong face with its proud smile to the shabby
suit of clothes, the stains upon them testifying to the nature of the
wearer's work, and his carelessness as an operator. As he looked he
smiled also. It was not a pleasant smile, and the younger man silently
resented it.
"Photography does not appear a very lucrative employment," he observed.
"No," answered St. John. "At least I do not find it so."
"Ah! Well, no doubt that assists you to realise the mistake you made."