The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4
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As she began on her solid slice of bread and butter St. Pancras bells
stopped again. In the stillness she could hear the sound of her own
munching. She stared at the surface of the table that held her plate and
cup. It was like sitting up to the nursery table. "How frightfully happy
I am," she thought with bent head. Happiness streamed along her arms and
from her head. St. Pancras bells began playing a hymn tune in single
firm beats with intervals between that left each note standing for a
moment gently in the air. The first two lines were playing carefully
through to the distant accompaniment of the rapid weaving and
interweaving in a regular unbroken pattern of the five soft low
contralto bells. The third line of the hymn ran through Miriam's head a
ding-dong to and fro from tone to semitone. The bells played it out,
without the semitone, with a perfect satisfying falsity. Miriam sat
hunched against the table listening for the ascending stages of the last
line. The bells climbed gently up, made a faint flat dab at the last top
note, left it in the air askew above the decorous little tune and rushed
away down their scale as if to cover the impropriety. They clamoured
recklessly mingling with Miriam's shout of joy as they banged against
the wooden walls of the window space.
CHAPTER II
1
"Been to church?" said Gerald digging his shoulders into his chair.
"No. Have you?"
"We've not been for weeks.... Everybody thinks us awful heathens."
"P'raps you are."
"It's Curls. She says she's hanged if she's going any more."
"I can't stand the vicar" said Harriett. "He doesn't believe a word he
says."
Fancy Harriett!...
"Besides, what's the good?"
"Oh, there you are."
"There's nothing the matter with church once in a way to my way of
thinking if it's a decent high musical service."
"Even Eve hardly ever goes now--and nobody could possibly be more goody
than she is."
This was disquieting. It was one thing to be the agnostic of the
family--but Eve and Harriett. Miriam pondered resentfully while Gerald
smoked and flicked his clothing and Harriett sat upright and pursed and
untroubled in her great chair. She wondered whether she ought to say
something about Unitarianism. But after all there might not be anything
in it and they might not feel the relief of the way it cleared up the
trouble about Christ. Besides there was no worry here in the room. A
discussion would lead nowhere. They could all three look at each other
if they wanted to and laugh everything off. In the middle of a sleepy
Sunday afternoon with nothing to do sitting in three huge chairs and
looking at each other they were all right. Harriett's strength and scorn
were directed against everything in the world but not against herself
... never against herself. Harriett often thought her grumpy and
ill-tempered, but she approved of her. She was approving now.