Miriam turned swiftly in her chair and looked up. But Mr. Hancock was
already at the door. There was only a glimpse of his unknown figure
arrested for a moment with its back to her as he pulled the door wide
enough to pass through. The door closed crisply behind him and his crisp
unhastening footsteps went away out of hearing along the thickly
carpeted hall.
"_Dear_ me!" she breathed through firmly held lips, standing up. Her
blood was aflame. The thudding of her heart shook the words upon her
breath. She was fighting against something more than amazement. She knew
that only part of her refused to believe. In a part of her brain
illumination leaving the shock already far away in the past, was at work
undisturbed, flowing rapidly down into thoughts set neatly in the
language of the world. She held them back, occupying herself
irrelevantly about the room, catching back desperately at the familiar
trains of revery suggested by its objects; cancelling the incident and
summoning it again and again without prejudice or afterthought. Each
time the shock recurred unchanged, firmly registered, its quality
indubitable. She sat down at last to examine it and find her thoughts.
Taking a pencil in a trembling hand she began carefully adding a long
column of figures. A system of adding that had been recommended to her
by the family mathematician now suggested itself for the first time in
connection with her own efforts....
How _dare_ he?
It was deliberate. A brusque casual tone, deliberately put on; a tone he
sometimes used to the boys downstairs, or to cabmen. How did he dare to
use it to her? It must cease instantly. It was not to be suffered for a
moment. Not for a moment could she hold a position which would
entitle any one, particularly any man to speak to her in
that--outrageous--_official_ tone. Why not? It was the way of business
people and officials all the world over.... Then he should have begun as
he meant to go on.... I won't endure it now. No one has ever spoken to
me in that way--and no one shall, with impunity. I have been fortunate.
They have spoiled me.... I should never have come if I had found they
had that sort of tone. It was his difference that made me come.
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Those two had talked to him and made him think. The aunt and cousins had
prepared the way. But their hostility had been harmless. These two had
approved. That was clear at the week-end. They must have chaffed him and
given him their blessing. Then, for the first time, he had thought,
sitting alone and pondering reasonably. It was he himself who had drawn
back. He was quite right. He belonged to that side of society and must
keep with them and go their way. Very wise and right ... but damn his
insolent complacency....
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