"Everything a professional man does, must stabilise his position."
Perhaps that is true. But then his business relationships must be
business relationships from the first ... that was expected. The wonder
of the Wimpole Street life was that it had not been so. Instead of an
employer there had been a sensitive isolated man; prosperous and strong
outwardly and as suffering and perplexed in mind as any one could be. He
had not hesitated to seek sympathy.
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_Any_ fair-minded onlooker would condemn him. Anyone who could have seen
the way he broke through resistance to social intercourse outside the
practice. He may have thought he was being kind to a resourceless girl.
It was _not_ to resourcelessness that he had appealed. It was not that.
That was not the truth.
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He would have cynical thoughts. The truth was that something came in and
happened of itself before one knew. A woman always knows first. It was
not clear until Babington. But there was a sharp glimpse then. He must
have known how amazed they would be at his cycling over after he had
neglected them for years, on that one Sunday. They had concealed their
amazement from him. But it was they who had revealed things. There was
nothing imaginary after that in taking one wild glance and leaving
things to go their way. Nothing. No one was to blame. And now he knew
and had considered and had made an absurd reasonable decision and taken
ridiculous prompt action.
* * * * *
A business relationship ... by _all_ means. But he shall acknowledge and
apologise. He shall explain his insulting admission of fear. He shall
admit in plain speech what has accounted for his change of manner.
* * * * *
Then that little horror is also condemned. _She_ is not a wealthy
efficient woman of the world.
* * * * *
Men are simply paltry and silly--all of them.
* * * * *
In pain and fear she wandered about her room, listening for her bell. It
had gone; the meaning of their days had gone; trust and confidence could
never come back. A door was closed. His life was closed on her for
ever....
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