The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4
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From a window somewhere down the street out of sight came the sound of
an unaccompanied violin, clearly attacking and dropping and attacking a
passage of half a dozen bars. The music stood serene and undisturbed in
the air of the quiet street. The man was following the phrase,
listening; strengthening and clearing it, completely undisturbed and
unconscious of his surroundings. 'Good heavens' she breathed quietly,
feeling the extremity of relief, passing some boundary, emerging strong
and equipped in a clear medium.... She turned back into the twilight of
the room. Twenty-one and only one room to hold the richly renewed
consciousness, and a living to earn, but the self that was with her in
the room was the untouched tireless self of her seventeenth year and all
the earlier time. The familiar light moved within the twilight, the old
light.... She might as well wash the grime from her wrists and hands.
There was a scrap of soap in the soap dish, dry and cracked and seamed
with dirt. The washstand rocked as she washed her hands; the toilet
things did not match, the towel-horse held one small thin face towel and
fell sideways against the wardrobe as she drew off the towel. When the
gas was on she would be visible from the opposite dormer window. Short
skimpy faded Madras muslin curtains screened a few inches of the endmost
windows and were caught back and tied up with tape. She untied the tape
and disengaged with the curtains a strong smell of dust. The curtains
would cut off some of the light. She tied them firmly back and pulled at
the edge of the rolled up blind. The blind streaked and mottled with
ironmould came down in a stifling cloud of dust. She rolled it up again
and washed once more. She must ask for a bath towel and do something
about the blind, sponge it or something; that was all.
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A light had come in the dormer on the other side of the street. It
remained unscreened. Watching carefully she could see only a dim figure
moving amongst motionless shapes. No need to trouble about the blind.
London could come freely in day and night through the unscreened happy
little panes; light and darkness and darkness and light.
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London, just outside all the time, coming in with the light, coming in
with the darkness, always present in the depths of the air in the room.
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