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Alma ordered fresh tea; Mr. Wilson and the husband and the two new men
were standing about. The elder man was describing in a large shouting
voice a new mantelpiece--a Tudor mantelpiece. What was a Tudor
mantelpiece? ... to buy a _house_ to put round it. What a clever
idea.... Little Mr. Wilson seemed to be listening; he squealed
amendments of the jests between the big man's boomings ... buy a _town_
to put round it.... What a lovely idea ... buy a NATION to put round it
... there was a burst of guffaws. Mr. Wilson's face was crimson; his
eyes appeared to be full of tears. The big man went on. Mrs. Binkley
kept uttering deep reedy caressing laughs. Two of the young men were
leaning forward talking eagerly with bent heads. Miriam's neighbour sat
upright with his hands on his knees, his eyes glaring as if ... as if he
were just going to jump out of his skin. Hidden by the increased stir
made by the re-entry of the maid, and encouraged by the extraordinary
clamour of hilarious voices Miriam ventured to ask him if he would
perform an act of charity by allowing her to rob him of one of his
cigarettes. She liked her unrecognisable voice. It was pitched deep, but
strong; a little like Mrs. Binkley's. The young man started and turned
eagerly towards her, stammering and muttering and fumbling about his
person. "I swear" he brought out, "I could cut my throat ... my _God_
... oh here we are." Seizing the open box from the tea-table he swung
round with his crossed legs extended across her corner so that she was
cut off from the rest of the room, and held the box eagerly towards her.
They both took cigarettes and he lit them with matches obtained from his
neighbour. "Thank you" said Miriam blissfully drawing "that has saved my
life." Precipitately restoring the matches he swung round again leaning
forward with his elbow on his knee, blocking out Miriam's view. Before
it was blocked out she had caught the eye of Mr. Wilson who was standing
facing her in the little group of men about the tea-table and still
interpolating their hubbub with husky squeals of jocularity, quietly
observing the drama in her corner. For the moment she did not wish to
listen; Alma's appreciative squeals were getting strained and the big
man was a bore. Seen sitting in profile taking his tea he reminded her
of Mr. Staple-Craven; her eye caught and recoiled from weak patches,
touches of frowsy softness here and there about the shaggy head. Cut off
from the room safe in the extraordinary preoccupation of the young man
whose eager brooding was moving now towards some imminent
communication--she had undisturbed knowledge of what she had done.
Speech and action had launched her, for good or ill, into the strange
tide running in this house. Its cold waters beat against her breast. She
was no longer quite herself. There was something in it that quickened
all her faculties, challenged all the strength she possessed. By speech