and action she had accepted something she neither liked, nor approved
nor understood; refusal would have left its secret unplumbed, standing
aside in her life, tormenting it. The sense of the secret intoxicated
her ... perhaps I am selling my soul to the devil. But she was glad that
Mr. Wilson had witnessed her launching.
"You are magnificent" gasped the young man glaring at the wall. "I mean
you are simply magnificent." He flashed unconscious eyes at her--_he_
had no consciousness of the cold tide with its curious touch of evil; it
was hand in hand with him and his simplicity that she had stepped down
into the water--and hurried on. "An angel of dreams. Dreams ... you
know--I say," he spluttered incoherently, "I _must_ tell you." His
working preoccupied face turned to face hers with a jerk that brought
part of the heavy sheaf of hair across one of his eyes. "I've been doing
the best work this week I ever did in my life!" Red flooded the whole of
his face and the far-away glare of his one visible eye became a blaze of
light, near, and smiling a guilty delighted smile. He was demanding
_her_ approval, _her_ sympathy, just on the strength of her being there.
It was the moment of consenting to Alma that had brought this. However
it had come she would have been unable to withstand it. He wanted
approval and sympathy; someone here had some time or other shut him up;
perhaps he was considered second-rate, perhaps he was second-rate; but
he was innocent as no one else in the room was innocent. "_Oh_, I _am_
glad" she replied swiftly. Putting his cigarette on the edge of the
piano he seized one of her hands and crushed it between his own. His
face perspired and there were tears in his eye. "_Do_ tell me about it"
she said with bold uneasy eagerness hoping he would drop her hand when
he spoke. "It's a play" he shouted in a low whisper, a spray of saliva
springing through his lips "a play--it's the finest stuff I ever rout."
Were all these people either cockney or with that very bland anglican
cultured way of speaking--like the husband and the man with the Tudor
mantelpiece?
7
"I can of course admit that the growth of corn was, at first, accidental
and unconscious, and that even after the succession of processes began
to be grasped and the soil methodically cultivated the success of the
crop was supposed to depend upon the propitiation of a _god_. I can see
that the discovery of the possibility of growing _food_ would enormously
alter the savage's conception of God, by introducing a new set of
attributes into his _consciousness_ of him; but in defining the God of
the Christians as a _corn_ deity you and Allen are putting the cart
before the horse."