The unbidden guest : $b or, Between two passions — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The unbidden guest : $b or, Between two passions
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From boyhood he had been secretly interested in the girl, and the
events following on his late visit to The Crags had intensified the
feeling. Love grew from pity and admiration, blended; and when Lelia
threw him over and he was free, the scales fell from his eyes, and he
saw in the beautiful face and noble character of the poor young girl
the realization of his dreams of happiness. In the impetuous moment
when he placed the ring on her trembling hand he wished that she might
some day become his wife.
He knew quite well that he would have to encounter the bitter
opposition of his family, that their pride would stand aghast at a
union between a Willoughby and the gipsy foundling. No matter, he would
wed to please himself, and if his proud father chose to disinherit him,
he would still be rich, having a snug fortune inherited from his dead
mother.
With such hopes and plans he had gone away, and on reaching home he had
been tempted to write to Miss Willoughby and confide in her, begging
for her friendship for Gipsy and himself; telling her all the truth of
the rupture between himself and Lelia, his change of heart toward Gipsy
and desire to make her his wife. Very eloquently he pleaded that she
would put aside pride and help him to his happiness.
“I realize, fully, what a blow it will be to the family, the breaking
off with Lelia, but with her imperious, jealous nature, she could
never have made me happy. I question now, in the light of my feelings
for Gipsy Darke, whether I ever really loved Lelia save with a
complacent, cousinly love,” he wrote frankly--and a little further on:
“My cousin cannot charge that I have behaved badly to her, because
she has made me the victim of her caprices a long time, and no one
can blame me that my patience is exhausted. When she gave me back my
ring, she told me she loved another, so she ought to rejoice that I
can say the same.
“If you are vexed with me, dear aunt, I am grieved; because, next to
my father and my dark-eyed young love, you are the dearest one on
earth to me. I know you have loved me fondly, too, because you have
twice given me to understand that you meant to divide your fortune
between Lelia and myself. Perhaps you will not wish to do so now, but
if you will only be kind to my sweet young love, I am willing for you
to make Lelia your sole heiress. We shall not need riches to ensure
our happiness.”
With a throbbing heart he posted this letter, little dreaming that it
was destined to fall into Lelia’s hands, and of the fury it would rouse
in her jealous breast.