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Like one in a nightmare dream he followed her to Lelia’s room, and
there in the cold, gray light of dawn, attended by the physician and a
maid servant, Lelia lay gasping with pain on her white couch, just as
she had been attired last evening. Evidently she had not been in bed
all night.
Doctor White, with a glass of medicine in his hand, was arguing,
entreating, ably seconded by the maid, but all to no avail.
The beautiful patient pushed them angrily away, moaning through her
clenched teeth:
“Let me die in peace! It is all I crave!”
“Lelia, Lelia, my love, I beseech you take the antidote before it is
too late! See, I have brought Laurie!” cried her mother eagerly.
A delicate convulsion shook the girl’s body from head to foot, her
pale face writhed with pain, her delicate blue eyes stared blankly into
space.
Mrs. Ritchie and the maid both screamed aloud in fear, and the
physician muttered an unintelligible word of keen anxiety.
“She is dying, my child is dying, and you have killed her, cruel
heart!” cried the agonized mother, turning on Laurie in fierce reproach
that shook his nerves, strained already to the highest tension.
“What can I do?” he muttered hoarsely, all his outraged manhood
shrinking from the sacrifice she demanded, even while Lelia’s pitiful
plight excited his pity and sympathy.
“Do! Do!” cried the frenzied mother wildly. “Give her the antidote
before it is too late! Hasten, hasten, she is fast going from us to
death!”
It certainly looked like it the way Lelia was convulsed with spasm
after spasm of keen agony, forcing groans of pain from her pallid lips
till it looked as if each succeeding moment must be her last.
The old doctor silently held out the glass to Laurie with two
significant words:
“Have mercy!”
“Have mercy!” sobbed the anguished mother.
“Have mercy!” echoed the maid imploringly.
And a sterner voice from the open door chimed in:
“Great Heaven, can my son hesitate over his plain honor and duty in
such a terrible hour?”
They were all hounding him to his fate, even his venerable, revered
father, and there was no appeal save to Heaven, that seemed to look on
in relentless silence.
With a feeling like a criminal receiving sentence of death, he grasped
blindly for the glass, and Doctor White put it carefully in his hand.
“Lose not a moment!” he earnestly adjured.
“Lelia,” he uttered, in a hoarse, strangled voice, with his hand on her
arm.
She quivered with pain, and her big, blue eyes flared wide open on his
face. They were filled with a terrible despair.
“Drink,” he said, placing the glass to her lips, but she clenched her
teeth, moaning through them:
“I wish to die!”
“No, no, you must drink and live--live for me!” he added in a strange,
far-off voice, unlike his own, like one accepting his death warrant.
And, indeed, he felt he would as willingly die as put on Lelia’s
fetters of love again.
Her clenched teeth parted, her eyes gleamed with joy, she cried like
one coming back from the dead: