Three millions! : $b or, The way of the world — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Three millions! : $b or, The way of the world
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“You must be satisfied that he loves you. Why, he spent seven eighths
of his time at Pine Hill, when you were sickest! I don’t think he
slept an hour a night for a fortnight. The whole town began to cry out
against him because he neglected other patients for you. When you were
out of danger, he still came six times where he need have come but
once. He has sent special messengers to Boston after grapes and flowers
for you. Does all this mean nothing?”
“I think he likes me--loves me, if you please,” replied Julia, more
seriously than she had before spoken.
“And you encourage him?”
“He is my physician; I cannot very well discourage him. He has never
spoken a word to me of love. I cannot refuse his flowers, or decline to
ride or walk with him, without giving him pain. I am very grateful to
him for what he has done. What can I do, Eugene?”
“If you do not love him, you ought not to encourage him.”
“I do not dislike him; and I cannot decline his attentions. If he asks
me to walk, it is for my health; if he asks me to ride, it is because
a ride will benefit my health. He has done nothing which any one might
not do for a sick friend.”
“Of course you expect him to make some progress.”
“What do you think I am, Eugene?” demanded she, impatiently. “I expect
nothing. I do not dislike him; that is all I can say.”
“Julia, Dick Birch says that Dr. Bilks is an artful, cunning villain.”
“I do not think any better of Dick for saying so,” replied Julia,
indignantly.
“Dick honestly believes it.”
“He must not expect me to believe it.”
“You used to think that what Dick said was law and gospel.”
“He did not use to say such things as that.”
“Julia, Dick is going to leave Poppleton--never to return, he says.”
“Of course he has good reasons for going.”
“Do you condemn him, Julia?”
“Far from it! I am sorry for him. I should not think he would go away
while everybody doubts his integrity.”
“Julia, have you lost all your regard for Dick?”
“No, Eugene.”
“Which do you like best--him or Dr. Bilks?”
“I cannot answer such questions. I don’t know. I always liked Dick very
much. I looked upon him as my best friend, as well as yours. After his
confessions on the stand, I thought it best that we should be less
intimate. It seems that Dick thought so himself, for I have not seen
him since.”
“The best evidence in the world of his noble and generous nature! He
loved you too well even to subject you to any invidious remark. He
suffers himself to save you from annoyance.”
“Poor fellow!”
“Dr. Bilks is near you all the time, while Dick is self-banished from
your presence. But, Julia, you must not encourage Dr. Bilks.”
“Must not?”
“Of course I mean you ought not to do so--at least for the present.”
“I do not mean to encourage him. I am not a beau-hunter.”