Three millions! : $b or, The way of the world — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Three millions! : $b or, The way of the world
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“Mary, it would be very strange if I should forget such a friend as you
have been to me.”
This was at least progressive.
“I could not complain of you if you did. I certainly have no claim upon
your friendly regard.”
“Indeed you have, Mary. I may forget many associates, but I shall
never cease to remember you as one for whom I have always felt a
strong----esteem.”
Was that all? Mary felt that it was. Her heart was yearning for his
love--not for his three millions. What she felt now, she had felt
before John Hungerford died, when Eugene was a humble law student in
the office of Squire Perkins. These carefully guarded expressions
seemed to shut the door against her, and to pile up a mountain between
them. Yet he thought he had said a great deal. He believed that she
understood him. He was tempted to take her hand as they stood by the
window looking out at Dick Birch on the knoll, and give it a gentle
pressure--just enough to assure her that he meant all he said; but this
would be committing himself just a trifle too far; it would be offering
her a bounty of three millions for her love. He must have some slight
expression on her part; he must have some assurance that she loved him
independently of his fortune.
“I have no doubt of your present esteem, but the excitements of
your new position will drive many old thoughts from your mind,” she
continued, perhaps wondering whether he had ever thought of her with
any more feeling than that of cold friendship.
“It may; but, Mary, you will never be driven from my thoughts; that is
to say, I shall always think of you as the kindest and best of friends.”
The first clause was too warm, the second too cold; and Eugene began to
struggle for the happy medium.
“Mary, I don’t know that any definite expressions of affection ever
passed between us,” he continued; “still there was a certain sympathy
of thought and feeling when--when--we went to school together,
which made us unusually good friends. While I was at the head on
the boys’ side, you were at the head on the girls’ side. All this
has gone by; but friendship between boys and girls has a tendency
to be a progressive sentiment which has ripened or will ripen into
something”--up came the three millions again--“will ripen into the
friendship of the man and the woman.”
“I hope so,” replied Mary; but it was with a sigh which she turned away
to conceal.
“Mary, I am going to Europe in a month or two--as soon as I can make my
arrangements. As I wander among the ruins of Greece and Rome, and sun
myself under pure Italian skies, about which we used to have something
to say at school, I shall think of--”--the three millions!--“I shall
think of--of my friends at home.”