Through the mill: The life of a mill-boy — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Through the mill: The life of a mill-boy
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Aunt Millie, in attempting to mend matters, unfortunately used the
wrong method. She antagonized her husband, sometimes beyond mortal
patience. She generally waited until my uncle was sober, and then let
loose vituperative storms that fell with crashing force on his spirit.
She was mistress of the vocabulary of invective; the stinging word,
the humiliating, the maddening word was instant on her lips. She did
not have her word once and for all. If she had, it would probably have
saved matters; but she kept up a steady stream of abuse throughout the
time uncle was in the house. Often he was planning for a night of home
when his wife would unload the full burden of her ire on him; and if
only for quietness, he would leave the house altogether and find solace
in the noggins and mugs.
As an onlooker, and though a mere lad, I saw that my aunt was taking
the wrong course, and every now and then, like a Greek chorus at the
tragedy, I would remonstrate with her, “Why don’t you let him alone
when he wants to stay at home? You’ve driven him off when he was not
going out, aunt!”
“You clown!” she would storm, “mind your place and manners before I
turn on you and give you a taste of the strap!”
After that it became my custom, whenever uncle was getting a
tongue-lashing, to say to him, in a whisper, “Don’t mind her, uncle.
Don’t leave the house. She doesn’t know what she’s saying!” In
secret, uncle would say to me, “It’s more than flesh and blood can
stand, Al, this constant nagging. I’d not be half so much away in the
public-houses if she’d let me have a peaceful time at home.”
Indeed, my uncle, intoxicated was five times more agreeable than was
his wife when angered. She herself was drinking mildly, and every sup
of ale fired her temper until it burned at white heat. All the bulldog
of the British roared and yelped in her then. If contradicted by my
uncle or me, she threw the first thing to hand, saucer, knife, or
loaf. So fearful was I that murder would ensue, that several times I
whispered to my uncle to go off to the “Linnet’s Nest” in the interests
of peace.
Like the reports of the messengers bringing to Job the full measure of
his loss, came market letters from Manchester, unpaid bills from the
town merchants, and personal repudiations by my uncle’s old customers.
We had to solicit credit from the shop-keepers. Failure was on its way.
One spring day in that year Uncle Stanwood came into the house in great
excitement. He met my aunt’s inquiring remark with, “I’m going to ship
for the United States, Millie!”
“Ship your grandaddy!” she retorted. “Been drinking gin this time, eh?”
“I’m sober enough, thank God” replied uncle. “I’ve borrowed enough
money to carry me across. That’s the only way I shall ever straighten
out and get away from the public-houses. It’s best; don’t you think so,
old girl?”
“What about us?” asked my aunt with an angry gleam in her eyes. “What’s
to become of us?”