Through the mill: The life of a mill-boy — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Through the mill: The life of a mill-boy
John Stuart Mill · en
Finally I found myself in an American school. I do not know what grade
I entered, but I do know that my teacher, a white-haired woman with a
saintly face, showed me much attention. It was she who kept me after
school to find out more about me. It was she who inquired about my
moral and spiritual welfare, and when she found that I did not go to a
church, mainly on account of poor clothes, she took me to the shopping
district one afternoon, and with money furnished her by a Woman’s
Circle, fitted me out with a brand new suit, new shoes and hat, and
sent me home with the promise that I would go with her to church the
following Sunday morning. In passing down a very quiet street on my
solitary way to church, the next Sabbath, I came to that high picket
fence behind which grew some luscious blue grapes. I clambered over
the fence, picked a pocketful of the fruit, and then went on to meet
my teacher at the doors of the sombre city church, where the big bell
clamored high in the air, and where the carpet was thick, like a
bedspread, so that people walked down the aisles silent like ghosts and
as sober. It was a strange, hushed, and very thrilling place, and when
the massive organ filled the place with whispering chords, I went back
to my old childish faith, that angels sat in the colored pipes and sang.
My days in the school-yard were very, very strenuous, for I had always
to be protecting England and the English from assault. I found the
Americans only too eager to reproduce the Revolution on a miniature
scale, with Bunker Hill in mind, always.
My attendance at this school had only a temporary aspect to it. When
my teacher spoke to me of going to the grammar school, I replied, “Oh,
I’m going in the mill in a year, please. I want to go into the mill
and earn money. It’s better than books, ma’am.” I had the mill in mind
always. Every day finished in school was one day nearer to the mill. I
judged my fellows, on the school-ground, by their plans of either going
or not going into the mill as early as I.
This desire to enter the mill was more and more strengthened as the
winter wore on, for then I was kept much at home and sent on the
streets after wood and coal. It was impossible to pick cinders with
mittens on, and especially the sort of mittens I wore--old stocking
feet, doubled to allow one piece to hide the holes in its fellow. On a
cold day, my fingers would get very blue, and my wrists, protruding far
out of my coat-sleeves, would be frozen into numbness. Any lad who had
once been in a mill would prefer it to such experiences.