Through the school: The experiences of a mill boy in securing an education
John Stuart Mill · en
“You planned to go into settlement or Y.M.C.A. work, probably,” I
hinted, “so many college fellows give themselves to that form of
service in these days, Thurber.”
“I know they do, Priddy, but I didn’t work it out in those directions,
either, but in a more vital way: one that has aroused every bit of
latent enthusiasm for service and helpfulness that might have been
hidden away in so pampered a body as mine. It’s what I call the
glimpse, Priddy. Want me to explain it?”
“Certainly I do.”
“Well, I really was put in a fix by so much talk in the classrooms from
the faculty and in the chapel by the President about ‘moral leadership’
and all that, and really thought at first that they were asking me
to go into definite self-sacrificing avocations like settlement work
and the other forms of social service, and I had no hankering for
that, either. I hated to leave father alone in his old age and wanted,
eventually, to succeed him in the ownership and direction of his
mills. I imagined myself a callow materialist, opposed to spiritual
forms of influence, but I did not want to give up the business. You
can probably imagine how heathenish I felt when I contrasted father’s
industrial policy with the call to be a social servant. I began to
think back to what father’s self-education had done for him and had
done for his employees. I faced the truth for the first time: how his
narrow-minded policy had brought him great wealth at the expense of
his self-respect and the happiness of so many of the people who worked
for him. For years and years and years, he had been just paying wages
for work done: that was all. He had paid no attention to the moral
or social welfare of his people: the hundreds of families under his
control. He did not go to their church, attend their lodges, go into
their homes, or ever make it his policy to inquire about their welfare.
He was just simply using them as tools towards the securing of a
fortune--for me, that was all. I saw it all, how he had been creating
in his little corner of our American industry, labor hostility,
unsanitary conditions, poor types of ignorant, drunken, loafing
citizens until the tenements belonging to his firm formed a perfect
slum. But he had not the eyes to see, nor has he yet; but he goes on
in the darkness and in the groove of his own selfishness, intensifying
the disloyalty of his employees and incidentally hurting his own
reputation. Yet I could not bring myself to give up desiring to take
on that industry. It was right then that the glimpse came.” Thurber
paused for a moment and then continued: