Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
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“Ah, my darling, if you would but have come with me, how much happier
I should have been!” he wrote most plaintively; adding: “Do you know
that your letter was most cruel? It was filled up with my friend Desha
and the handsome unknown who saved your life. Ah, my love, do not let
either of these men steal you from me, for the loss of you would wreck
my life! I do not care to hear about them. It is news of you, dearest,
for which my lonely heart is hungry. If you could see me looking at
your beautiful photograph and kissing it over and over, you would
pity me and write some sweet loving words to show that you have not
forgotten me in my enforced exile from your side!”
Viola’s heart was touched by the pathos of the poor fellow’s letter,
and she brought out his photograph and looked at it with tender eyes,
saying, as she often did:
“Poor fellow, how he loves me! He has a warm, true heart!”
And she thought bitterly of that cold, indifferent young statesman who
had resisted all the allurements of her beauty, and who was doubtless
wedded to his soaring ambitions.
In her bitterness at Desha, she wrote very tenderly to Florian, filling
his heart with delight, and quieting his uneasiness by saying:
“You need not be jealous of Professor Desha; I seldom see him any
more. He devotes himself to congressional affairs, and never goes into
society now, so I suppose he has forgotten my existence. As for the
young man who saved my life, he has never divulged his identity, and
does not intend to, I suppose, and I should never give him another
thought only that gratitude demands it. Ah, Florian, how I miss you
these dull days while I must stay at home and get strong! It is so
lonely that I get more time to think about my love for you. Yes, I do
love you; you need never doubt that! I look at your photograph often,
and kiss it, too, as you do mine! I think that whenever you come back I
will let you announce our engagement and set the wedding-day. I wonder
what Professor Desha will think when he hears it.”
Florian was in the seventh heaven when he received that letter.
It was the tenderest one she ever wrote him, for very soon she went
out again into society, and amid her pleasures and her engagements
had little time for letters, so that he found her a most unpunctual
correspondent, though he entreated her to write frequently to cheer his
dull days passed by the bedside of his invalid father and trying to
comfort his grieving mother.
But whenever the brevity or the carelessness of her later letters
grieved him, he turned to the sweet, tender one written under the
impetus of her resentment against Desha, and found solace in the words:
“Yes, I do love you--you need never doubt that. I look at your
photograph often, and kiss it, too, as you do mine. I think that
whenever you come back I will let you announce our engagement and set
the wedding-day.”